We are truly sorry to hear about the struggle with self-hatred and procrastination. It's important to remember that God loves us deeply, and His love is not based on our performance or lack of mistakes. He says I have loved you with an everlasting love therefore with loving kindness I have drawn you. The WEB translation of Jeremiah 31.3 Let's address the situation with biblical principles and prayer.
Firstly, it's crucial to understand that God's view of us is not based on our self-perception or feelings, but on the perfect sacrifice of Jesus Christ. When believe in Jesus Christ and we are in Him, we are made righteous and holy in God's sight, we are no longer guilty because we are no longer sin. Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. The WEB translation of Romans 8.1 This is regardless of how we feel about ourselves, He wants us to know that I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope in your latter end. The WEB translation of Jeremiah 29.11
The feelings of self-hatred and doubt can often stem from ungodly pride, which is a focus on self rather than on God. As it is written, For I know that in me that is, in my flesh, dwells no good thing: for to will is present with me, but to do that which is good is not. The WEB translation of Romans 7.18 This pride can lead to a critical spirit towards oneself and others. It's important to repent of this pride and ask God to replace it with humility and love.
Procrastination and laziness are indeed issues that need to be addressed, as they can lead to further problems and hinder us from fulfilling God's purpose for our lives. The Bible tells us that Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in Sheol, where you are going. The WEB translation of Ecclesiastes 9.10
Let's not allow ourselves to avoid tasks due to feelings of burnout or lack of motivation. Instead, let's trust in God to renew our strength and help us accomplish what needs to be done. But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not be weary; and they shall walk and not faint. The WEB translation of Isaiah 40.31
Now, let's pray for guidance and strength:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up this precious soul who is struggling with self-hatred, procrastination, and laziness. Lord, we know that these issues are not part of Your will for our lives. We repent of the pride that leads to these feelings and actions. Lord Jesus Christ, Your came to set us free, and You have delivered us from the power of darkness, and translated us into the kingdom of your dear Son. WEB translation of Colossians 1.13
Father, we ask that You fill us with Your Holy Spirit, renewing our minds and giving us the strength to overcome these struggles. Help us to see ourselves as You see us, loved, forgiven, and redeemed. Give us the wisdom and motivation to tackle our responsibilities with diligence and joy.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
As a final encouragement, consider this verse: For it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure. The WEB translation of Philippians 2.13 Trust in God's work in our lives, and let's press on towards the goal of living in His purpose and love.