Atheim
Disciple of Prayer
I’ll be honest, I have been struggling. I have sinned. I have done things I am extraordinarily not proud of. I’ve sinned and begged for forgiveness before, yet somehow something in me mentally just… falls right back into the same rhythm. Tonight, I had a bad experience with someone that I had just met. It was an experience that as I was driving home, something turned me around and turned back to my church at 2 in the morning. I sat in front of my church and cried. I struggle with crying, I have become extraordinarily desensitized to things happening in my life where bad things just happen and I’ve accepted it. Tonight though, something just flipped… I want to be better. Somewhere internally, I’ve been wanting this for a long time but something has just had this urge to overpower me to sin. I cried, cried and confessed my sins on holy grounds. I begged for forgiveness, for a path to light itself and for the potential consequences of my actions to not endure, to let me right my wrongs and to push forward. Please, I ask all of you for help and to pray for me. I cannot live the way I live anymore. I need help, and I just… can’t do it anymore. This life is not working the way I want it to, and I want it to be better. I want to be better. Please pray for the path to make itself known.