Acherem
Disciple of Prayer
Last year was a very hard year for my family. On April 8th of 2020 my mother was found dead on her living room floor by her care provider and I had to handle all her final affairs by myself as my family didn't want anything to do with it and to top it all off she didn't have any insurance so it was a big financial burden to my family. 5 months after my mothers passing on September 8th 2020 my family lost our home and everything we owned (including my mothers ashes, every picture I had left of her as well as my kids baby pictures, and our beloved kitten) from the Almeda fire in Talent, Oregon and were left homeless and forced to stay in hotels. While staying in hotels in November of 2020 my whole family fell ill and tested positive for Covid 19 and were forced into quarantine by the Health department and the CDC until we were symptom free. Thankfully we recovered from it although I was left with lasting heart issues that I am currently seeing a cardiologist for. After we thought things couldn't get any worse our car kept breaking down and after thousands of dollars in mechanic bills we ended up having to just buy a new car which took a majority of our savings. I am sorry for the long post, I'm honestly not even sure if I am supposed to post this here, but my family has been struggling non stop and although I know everything happens for a reason and this must be gods will and that he must have some plan in place I'm really struggling to keep faith. After everything we have been through and all the obstacles we have overcome it still seems like one test of faith after another. We still have not been able to find a house, due to the fires and so many being left homeless the housing market here is ridiculous to say the least, people have price gouged and raised rent so high that it's more than paying a mortgage and we have been trying to get a loan for a home but are having a hard time finding someone who will work with my husbands poor credit because turns out even if yours is good if the other applicants isn't they go by that. I'm so sorry for the long rant I don't have anywhere else to vent and I've been praying so hard my head hurts to no avail, so I'm hoping maybe he will listen to someone else on my behalf lol. To be honest I don't expect God to solve or ease my burdens as they are not his problems to bear....I just wish I felt like he was listening! If you want to help pray for my family it would be much appreciated. Although I know I am not the only one suffering through this, and I know there are much worse problems out there but I feel as if I am bearing this weight alone. I can't talk to my husband without an argument ensuing and I have no friends or family so it gets hard but I'm doing my best, I just don't know how much longer I can hold on for something good to finally happen......