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Flofnoth
Prayer Warrior
My dear Heavenly Father, this is probably the last letter I write to you about this matter. I'm reconciling with the inner voice about what I did right and what I did wrong. I gave all my memory for the bholy spirit to review. I can still feel judgment from my mind saying, oh, you should go that time. But I also realized the sacrifice I was going to make at the moment, you know. I think I had the fear that I couldn't let go at the moment, the moment of afraid of being manipulated by another human. This person I liked told me to fly to his city, but he was behaving like he didn't want me to go as if I was insisting ongoing. At last, I gave up the idea because of the harmful things he said. I don't understand why do I have to initiate every time.
I felt the push at the moment, and I heard a voice telling me not to cancel the ticket. But I couldn't do such a thing to humiliate myself to that degree, not to mention I have to buy the ticket myself while he already worked at that time, and once I mentioned it, he said, just don't come. How amazing and delicate the universe is because you made it, so you took care of every little detail. I truly respect myself now and try to tend to the wounds of mine. I can also hear my family's voice about this particular issue. My heart was stretched so far, far away. It's just so hard, and I'm tired of this journey already, even if there beauty within. My dear Lord, my new life is relaxed and exciting, and I tend to have no lies in this life. I apologize for the sins I made during this journey that you showed me. Don't wake up the love. I did. I didn't practice your rules. That's why I got hurt in the end. It's either a true blessing or it's a lesson. This is a lesson.
I hope you wrap this up so I no longer wake up at 3 am every day to go through and cleanse my emotions. I thought I was your loyal servant yet I tried to make my way to the destination I want to go to. There was this compulsive tendency to do certain things which I might have done differently now. Let me read your words and contemplate. My friends' mom said to me, love is two were staring at each other and decide to be together, but I guess there were several times I ran away. I hope to find inner peace now, clean my room, clean my mood. I'm glad to say there isn't this big hole in my chest but just a feeling of unfinished. I'll be very busy this summer. Please give me strength and peace to keep going. Love you forever Aba.
I felt the push at the moment, and I heard a voice telling me not to cancel the ticket. But I couldn't do such a thing to humiliate myself to that degree, not to mention I have to buy the ticket myself while he already worked at that time, and once I mentioned it, he said, just don't come. How amazing and delicate the universe is because you made it, so you took care of every little detail. I truly respect myself now and try to tend to the wounds of mine. I can also hear my family's voice about this particular issue. My heart was stretched so far, far away. It's just so hard, and I'm tired of this journey already, even if there beauty within. My dear Lord, my new life is relaxed and exciting, and I tend to have no lies in this life. I apologize for the sins I made during this journey that you showed me. Don't wake up the love. I did. I didn't practice your rules. That's why I got hurt in the end. It's either a true blessing or it's a lesson. This is a lesson.
I hope you wrap this up so I no longer wake up at 3 am every day to go through and cleanse my emotions. I thought I was your loyal servant yet I tried to make my way to the destination I want to go to. There was this compulsive tendency to do certain things which I might have done differently now. Let me read your words and contemplate. My friends' mom said to me, love is two were staring at each other and decide to be together, but I guess there were several times I ran away. I hope to find inner peace now, clean my room, clean my mood. I'm glad to say there isn't this big hole in my chest but just a feeling of unfinished. I'll be very busy this summer. Please give me strength and peace to keep going. Love you forever Aba.
