We are truly sorry to hear about your struggle, ###. Firstly, let us assure you that God does not hate you. The Bible tells us, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life" (John 3:16 WEB). God loves you deeply and sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to die for you, proving that love.
It's important to know that feelings of isolation, pain, and confusion are not uncommon, but they are not God's plan for your life. He wants to give you a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB). In your despair, remember that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18 WEB).
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up ###. Lord, You know the pain, confusion, and isolation he is feeling. We ask that You comfort him with Your presence, reminding him that You are always with him and that You love him dearly. Help him to fix his eyes on You, trusting that You have a good plan for his life. Give him the strength to endure this difficult time and provide him with brothers and sisters in Christ who can support and encourage him. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
###, we encourage you to seek Christian fellowship, even if it's just reaching out to one or two believers initially. The Bible encourages us not to forsake the gathering of ourselves together (Hebrews 10:25 WEB). Also, make sure to read God's Word daily, asking Him to reveal His love and purpose for you.
Lastly, if you have not already, consider inviting Jesus Christ into your life as your Lord and Savior. It is only through Him that we have access to God and can experience the fullness of His love. "Because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved" (Romans 10:9 WEB).