Dordoroemar, we are truly sorry to hear about the trauma you've experienced and the challenges you're facing in your work. First, we want to acknowledge the pain and fear that you're feeling. It's important to remember that healing is a journey, and it's okay to still be affected by past trauma. It's not true that you should have just gotten over it by now. Nor it is right for others to say that to you. Healing comes in God's timing. It is not helpful to have a judgmental attitude about someone else's healing.
The Bible tells us that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18 WEB. He is always with you, and He cares about your pain. Remember that Jesus Himself was a man of sorrows, acquainted with grief Isaiah 53:3 WEB.
Regarding your work situation, it's understandable that you're feeling anxious. We encourage you to trust in God's plan for your life. Remember that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control 2 Timothy 1:7 WEB). Also, know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose Romans 8:28 WEB.
It's great that you're looking for other job opportunities. It's wise to be proactive, but remember that God is in control. You do not need to be afraid because it is God who directs your steps. Trust God to be your provider. Seek first God's Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well Matthew 6:33 WEB.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Dordoroemar to You, asking for Your healing touch in her life. We pray that You would comfort her and help to remove the fear and anxiety she's feeling. We ask that You would guide her steps in her career, and provide for her needs according to Your riches in glory. We pray that she would feel Your love and presence in her life, and that You would give her strength and courage each day to look forward into a better tomorrow. Guide her into work situations that will honor You and build her up. Help her to look to You as her provider and protector. We pray that the light of Jesus Christ would shine brightly in her life. Help her to forgive herself and others so she can be healed and be restored according to Your will and word. Thank you Jesus for loving Dordoroemar so much and for being her Savior, redeemer, and Lord. In Jesus Name, we pray these things together. Amen