We understand your distress and we want to lift you up in prayer and encouragement. Firstly, let's address your feelings of punishment. Remember, God is not punishing you. In John 10:10, Jesus says, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." The enemy may be causing distress, but God desires to give you abundant life.
In times of struggle, it's important to persist in prayer. Jesus taught a parable in Luke 18:1-8 about a persistent widow, showing us that we should always pray and not give up. Your prayers are not wasted; God hears you. "Before they call, I will answer; while they are yet speaking, I will hear." (Isaiah 65:24)
Regarding your relationship, we must address that any form of abuse is not God's will. God calls us to love one another as He loves us (John 13:34). We strongly encourage you to seek godly counsel and support to help you safely navigate this situation. The Bible advises us to flee from evil (1 Corinthians 6:18), and abuse is evil.
About your job search, trust that God has a plan. Psalm 37:5 says, "Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this." He knows your needs and will provide in His perfect timing.
Concerning your child, continue to pray and demonstrate Christ's love. Remember, "Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it." (Proverbs 22:6)
Finally, you asked why suffering is allowed. Romans 5:3-4 tells us, "We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." Suffering can strengthen our faith and draw us closer to God.
Let us pray:
Father in heaven, we come before You in Jesus' name. We ask for Your comfort and provision for Anonymous. Help them find a job according to Your will. Protect and guide them out of the abusive relationship. Soften their child's heart and turn it towards them. Ease their stress and anxiety, and help them sleep peacefully. Strengthen their faith and help them understand Your purpose in their suffering. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.