Anonymous
Beloved of All
Dear Jesus, please let me pour out my heart to you. Please let me pour out my heart to you to prevent me from losing my mind!!! Jesus please be upset, but if I don’t unburden myself I might not be able to keep my sanity!! LORD, this has been building up in me for a long time!! I need help, Jesus!! I need deep and tangible and true help. I need to hear from you or I may not last. Lord, can you, WILL you hear the cry of a single old man as he cries out to you from the depths of his wounded soul???? Oh God, I am in distress!! I do not understand, and Lord you know I have TRIED for the last four years..I have tried and tried and tried, but LORD, I can not understand, I can not grasp WHY so many in our government HATE MY AMERICA!! I didn’t think it was possible to hate America, which has been a blessing to billions, but the last four years have changed my mind! My perspective began to change the day about four years ago when I saw in one day a man sign executive orders UNDOING all the good the man precious to him had done, starting with taking jobs away from the pipe line!! Lord, I could barely believe it!! It began to dawn on me, Jesus, that there are actually people who hate America to an impossible level!!! My mind has been trying to grasp it ever since! My Jesus, I do not for the life of me understand why they are hell bent on DESTROYING this once great nation!! Dear Jesus, it boggles my mind!! You know Lord my military record. You know dear Jesus Christ that I served and was discharged HONORABLY during that era of ‘Nam. You know that many of my brothers in arms gave ALL, and are now resting six feet under at Arlington. And now, this government spits on their grave!! This government treats my brothers who are still alive like DOGS!!! LORD I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!! Lord it TEARS AT ME FROM THE INSIDE!!! Oh God!!!!!! Help me!!! Reach down from your throne and HELP THIS OLD MAN!!! I don’t understand why those in power hate America and want to DESTROY what we fought so hard got for and why they want to bring in MARXISM!! Why are the Marxists getting all the cheers and applause??? I don’t understand!! I don’t understood what’s happening to my America!! And now I’m too old to fight! I’d gladly reenlist and fight again, but I am old and discarded. Not worthy of their time. I have become the dirt under their shoes!! They are RICH!! They have billions at their disposal to further their evil, wicked cause, the cause of destroying my way of life and the way of life of my daddy before me, and his daddy before him, but also the future of my grand children!!! But I have only a meager social security payment every month, that they toss at me like scraps to a dog!! They can afford million dollar lawyers and they can afford extravagant campaigns to bring in their communist agenda, but I have to scratch to get groceries! Lord I don’t understand!! I don’t understand WHY in the last four years my grocery bill has tripled!! I don’t understand why my utility bill keeps going up and up!! Jesus, why is it such a fight just to afford a trip to the grocery store or the gas pump??? It wasn’t like this in America four years ago when someone was in office whom they now tried to assassinate!! In fact, back then I had hope in America and the American dream. The economy was PLUMPY and groceries were EXTREMELY affordable! Is that what they hate, Jesus? Do they really hate when life is good for us??? Does that offend them?? So WHY????? Why is it a problem for our would be slave masters when life is good??? Is that any proverbial skin off their back?? Jesus, help me understand. I don’t get it, Lord!!! Sometimes I feel I’m gonna go crazy trying to comprehend all this!! I don’t understand why my property taxes have raised by hundreds of dollars but my social security has seemingly shrunk, and why I’m getting squeezed at both ends!! Lord do they hate me simply because I love America like my daddy and his daddy before me??? Is that such a terrible offense??? Is it an offense that I simply want peace and to be left alone to live the rest of my life in peace and safety and to die in peace in my bed at a very old age as an American?? Is it such an offense that I refuse to support the wicked Marxist agenda that a cackling hyena wants to bring in to put the final nails in the coffin of my beloved country??? Is it such an offense that her wicked cackling is to me like fingernails on a blackboard times ten??? And why does this shallow woman talk in circles making no sense but only word salad? Is it such an offense that I hate an open border and I reject and abominate CRIMINALS pouring illegally into my country bringing fentanyl and terror and murder to the innocent, rightful citizens of America??? Jesus, oh my Jesus, I do not understand!! And I will not rest in peace until I can get a handle on this!! Is it such an offense that I believe God created them male and female and ONLY TWO GENDERS and so when I hear about TAMPON DISPENSERS being installed in the boys bathrooms that I want to SCREAM and want to try to shake some SENSE into these LUNATICS???? Tampons dispensers in the boys room??? Really????? And the one who pushes this wants to be VICE PRESIDENT????? Is it such an offense that I was raised and brought up in a home where we were taught the OLD FASHIONED WAY, and that I want my grand children to grow up the same way????? Is it such an offense that I hate it that they tell one wicked lie after another IN MY FACE and assume I’m stupid enough to swallow those lies???? I may be an old vet, but my mind is still sharp, and I have had enough decades on this earth to be able to tell a lie when it’s thrown at me!! Jesus, I don’t understand the insanity!! I don’t understand the changes in society that make it almost unrecognizable to me from the beautiful patriotic America that I grew up in!!! Tears fill my eyes, Jesus as I type and pour out my heart to you for UNDERSTANDING, for you told me in Proverbs to GET understanding. But it seems like a distant dream. I don’t understand why when I try to speak up about these things I’m censored . I’m told to shut up and told that “fact checkers have found that statement to be false!!” But Jesus, Lord, I only speak the truth!!! With you as my witness Lord, I speak only the truth!! Why do they want me to shut up??? I think as a vet I EARNED my right to speak my mind!! Jesus, I don’t understand WHY all this nightmare is unfolding in my America!!! My eyes and ears can hardly believe what they are witnessing!!!! I was utterly shocked when they showed that they hate America so much and with such a vile hatred that they were willing to blow the head off in PUBLIC of a man who obviously loves America as me!! But miraculously, they only grazed his ear!!!! I was stunned that he was willing to take a bullet for me and for what he believes! But I don’t understand why they hate him so much!!!! He stands for the same old fashioned values that I was brought up on!! Jesus, would they also have been willing to blow MY HEAD OFF TOO, if I had been standing there??? Is that our payment for fighting for our country and serving??????? My Jesus, I don’t understand!!! Jesus I can not wrap my mind around or grasp this nightmare that I see unfolding before my very eyes!!! But you are the only hope!! I don’t even recognize the music in America any more!! Oh my Jesus, the music I was brought up on was amazing! It was beautiful! It was classy! It was intelligently composed by people who knew and understood the elements of music. It was music of QUALITY!! But now I hear horrible hellish sounding NOISE coming from the car windows of cars passing by!! I am forced to clap my hands over my ears and RUN!!!! Lord, It doesn’t even sound like music! Not even close!Where are the notes? Where is the lyrical melody??? All I hear is vibrations that shake the ground and grunting or shouting of something that has no resemblance to true music!!!! It sounds like ANIMALS let loose from the monkey cage at the zoo!! I don’t recognize my America anyone! It has been seized upon by mad, rabid dogs!! It seems to me the dogs of hell have been unleashed to wreak havoc and destruction upon the land!! Jesus, Jesus, Jesus HELP ME!! Help me to understand before I lose my mind, God!!!! Where do I turn?? Lord where do I turn for answers?? You are all I know!!! If you help me not, then Lord there is no help!!! Touch my soul, LORD!! For my soul is In anguish when I see all that is unfolding in front of me in my once great America that I no longer recognize!!!! What I’m seeing is something I’m ASHAMED to leave to my grand children!!! Jesus help me before I die!!