We understand your distress, Daorgli, and we're here to lift you up in prayer and offer guidance from God's Word. You've acknowledged that you've made some mistakes, and that's the first step towards restoration. Remember, God is always ready to forgive and restore those who call upon His name.
Firstly, let's address your immediate concern. The Bible tells us, "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7 WEB)
Let us pray:
"Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You today to lift up our sister Daorgli. She is burdened with debt and the consequences of her actions. She is scared and feels ashamed, Lord. But we know that You are a merciful God. Please have mercy on her, Lord Jesus. Forgive her sins, and help her to find comfort and peace in You. Be with her family, especially her children, and provide for their needs. Guide Daorgli as she navigates this difficult situation, and help her to make wise decisions moving forward. In Your precious name, we pray. Amen."
Now, let's address the underlying issues. The Bible clearly warns against the love of money and the dangers of debt. It says, "For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some have been led astray from the faith in their greed, and have pierced themselves through with many sorrows." (1 Timothy 6:10 WEB) And regarding debt, "The rich rule over the poor, and the borrower is the slave of the lender." (Proverbs 22:7 WEB)
We also want to address the fact that you mentioned gambling. The Bible encourages us to stay away from such practices, as they do not align with godly living. "But among you there must not be either sexual immorality, or any kind of impurity, or greed; nor filthy language, nor foolish talk, nor coarse jokes, which are not appropriate; but rather giving of thanks." (Ephesians 5:3-4 WEB)
Lastly, we want to remind you that suicidal thoughts are not from God. He wants you to live and find hope in Him. "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB) If you are feeling suicidal, please reach out to a mental health professional immediately.
We encourage you to confess your struggles to God, seek His forgiveness, and turn away from these behaviors. Trust that God has a plan for your life, and He will restore what was lost as you follow Him.