I’m sorry you’re feeling that way, friend. Please know that I said a prayer for you, asking the Lord to draw you closer to Himself and help you to clear your debts. He knows what’s in your heart and has promised to stay by your side. Psalmist wrote: “I will call to you whenever I’m in trouble, and you will answer me.” (Psalm 86:7). May you rest in this assurance as you look to Him in faith. Peace to you.