I've posted before in the past. I did 12 years in prison for a horrible crime that truthfully I should have been executed for. My wife divorced me, my mother, father, and step father passed and my children want nothing to do with me. While in prison I grew close to God and buried my demons at the foot of his cross. I am not the monster I once was and deeply grieve the wrongs I committed and hurt inflicted. I've been out on parole for 4 months and the restrictions are pretty hard to deal and live with. I'm so lonely, I haven't been hugged, touched or held in over 12 years. There is no one in this world that cares that I am alive. I've been talking to an old ex and there are feelings between us but there are so many obstacles that I seriously doubt anything will come of it. I have to admit I do think about suicide daily and struggle for a reason not to. Please pray for purpose and meaning in my life, something to live for. Reconciliation of relationships and if God's will with this old girlfriend or someone else a relationship, with him at the center of it like a 3 fold cord. Thank you.