Boronelia
Humble Prayer Warrior
I've noticed in my life, now 64, that I've always give to people that are in need. It's been like this right from childhood. As an adolescent, I had a childhood boyfriend. And I was giving this guy who had lost his dad, up to higher school then, before I got married. We never met again for some years. And when we eventually met, even with his own family, he took the advantage of our childhood, innocent, genuine love, we had for each other, and he kept asking for financial help, plus material help, and I was helping with genuineness of heart. One day, I needed financial assistance, and I told him. I was almost knocked down by shock, at his statement. He said, "is it after you helped someone, you expect him to pay you back?" Very heart breaking statement. But life continued I have never received any help from him. Very heart breaking. And of course, because he feels okay financially, he had nothing to do with me anymore. I've noticed that even now, today, those I thought could be Destiny helpers to me, are people I become destiny helpers to. I don't have anything doing, I live on the pocket money my children give me for my upkeep. It is the money, I give out to help people in need. The most shocking one, is that a man, who I expected to help me, is someone I am helping today. What have I done to deserve this? I help out of lack. I do not receive. I don't have such favor from anyone. I'm joyful giving, but why do I not receive, if not from my children, or husband? My request is that God should cause me to start having financial favour from people, also. Let me know how it feels to receive. Let me start giving from abundance and not from lack. It will help me better when giving, if I have abundance.