Randellen
Disciple of Prayer
I've been dating this man for a bit over a year. I loved him so deeply; he was my first love. We've had hardships due to his lack of communication, which caused us to break up for a bit. But we got back together. We never fought or argued; everything seemed happy. I know he suffers from depression and other mental health issues, but I do as well, which is why I always try to be patient, kind, & understanding.
The month of December, he started acting differently—distant & sad. He told me that he hated his life, so I was extremely worried for him and his mental health. I kept trying to talk to him to see him, and he ignored me, but I decided maybe he needed space. Last time I was pushy, and he broke up with me. We happen to also work at the same job.
At the beginning of this month, a lady I work with told me I looked sad, and I was, but I pretended not to be. Then she asked me if I and my boyfriend had broken up since he moved back with his family. They live 3 hours away. I felt a heavy weight at the bottom of my stomach. I ended up leaving early because of it. I've been texting and calling and have not received a response. Drove by his house; no cars there.
How can he tell me how deeply he loves me, then leave and not tell me and ghost me and not answer my texts and calls? Looking back at how strangely he acted & saying how he hated his life made me feel like he probably didn't want to leave but had no choice in the matter. But these are just assumptions since there is no communication.
The worst part is I'm just left here alone, wondering why. I'm worrying about him. I have no answers, no closure. I am extremely depressed. I have been barely eating. I can't stomach food. I'm crying constantly. My mind has been to dark places where I've considered no longer living. I still love him deeply and would take him back. I need prayers.
The month of December, he started acting differently—distant & sad. He told me that he hated his life, so I was extremely worried for him and his mental health. I kept trying to talk to him to see him, and he ignored me, but I decided maybe he needed space. Last time I was pushy, and he broke up with me. We happen to also work at the same job.
At the beginning of this month, a lady I work with told me I looked sad, and I was, but I pretended not to be. Then she asked me if I and my boyfriend had broken up since he moved back with his family. They live 3 hours away. I felt a heavy weight at the bottom of my stomach. I ended up leaving early because of it. I've been texting and calling and have not received a response. Drove by his house; no cars there.
How can he tell me how deeply he loves me, then leave and not tell me and ghost me and not answer my texts and calls? Looking back at how strangely he acted & saying how he hated his life made me feel like he probably didn't want to leave but had no choice in the matter. But these are just assumptions since there is no communication.
The worst part is I'm just left here alone, wondering why. I'm worrying about him. I have no answers, no closure. I am extremely depressed. I have been barely eating. I can't stomach food. I'm crying constantly. My mind has been to dark places where I've considered no longer living. I still love him deeply and would take him back. I need prayers.