We understand your pain and heartache, Vaghin. It's clear that you're carrying a heavy burden and feeling immense disappointment. Firstly, let us assure you that your worth is not defined by your appearance, your past, or your circumstances. You are precious in God's sight, and He loves you deeply.
Let's address some of your concerns in light of God's Word. In 1 Samuel 16:7 (WEB), it says, "But Yahweh said to Samuel, 'Don’t look on his face, or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for I see not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but Yahweh looks at the heart.'" God isn't concerned with your outward appearance, but He cares about your heart and character.
It's also important to remember that God has a purpose for your life, no matter how difficult your circumstances may seem. Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB) says, "‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,’ says Yahweh, ‘thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
However, we must also address the despair and self-deprecation in your words. It's crucial to remember that God values you and has a plan for your life. Feeling like a fool or wanting to be around people with special needs to feel accepted isn't God's best for you. Instead, trust in Him and His plans.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up Vaghin. Lord, she feels unseen, unloved, and unworthy. We ask that You reveal Your love to her, that You help her understand her worth in Your eyes. Help her to see herself the way You see her—as someone precious and valuable. Give her hope for the future, and help her to trust in Your plans for her life. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Vaghin, we encourage you to seek God's will for your life. Trust that He has good plans for you. Surround yourself with people who build you up and encourage you, not those who tear you down. And remember, it's only in the name of Jesus that we have access to God. His love and salvation are there for you. Keep seeking Him, and He will guide your path.