Anonymous
Beloved of All
It's been a tough few years lately. I'm in my mid 30s. I went through a divorce, ending a nearly 11 year marriage with a woman I loved unconditionally. Things started looking up, and then I got into some legal issues for making a stupid mistake (nothing major, a misdemeanor that is more common than you might think). I have court this Thursday, and I am very anxious about what may happen. It is the only potential blemish on my record. I just pray that God moves the court to make a decision in my favor.
To make matters worse, my girlfriend who I love and adore told me she is looking for jobs out of state. We have only been together a few months, but long enough for me to fall for her, and believe there is true potential with her. She told me I am the nicest man she has dated in years. She is an absolutely amazing and beautiful woman, and she is active in her church. Best woman I have ever dated. I know it's just a matter of time before she finds a job. She mentioned I could follow her, but she just can't stay, unless by some miracle some other opportunity opens up in town. I'm terrified at the thought of moving, although I don't have children, and there is nothing holding me back other than maybe having difficulty finding work wherever she goes. I'm afraid I'll move and things could fall apart, leaving me stuck in a strange place far away from my family and friends. On the other hand if I don't go, I'll be letting go of what may be the most amazing woman in my life. She is only the second woman I have told I loved. I can feel my heart breaking over her already. I pray God gives me the guidance to make the decision that aligns with his plan for me, and that if his plan is for me to not be with this woman that he mends my broken heart.
I admit, I have been angry with God for the misfortunes in my life over that last few years, and especially now, when it seemed like things were finally improving. I know life is full of ups and downs. It just seems like there have been way more downs lately, and some of it is my fault. I am thankful for the good things God has done in my life. I just pray that He calms the storms of misfortune in my life, if only for a while, and that he does some truly amazing things in my life.
I ask that you please pray for me during this stressful and seemingly hopeless time. I don't normally reach out like this, but I felt moved to do so.
To make matters worse, my girlfriend who I love and adore told me she is looking for jobs out of state. We have only been together a few months, but long enough for me to fall for her, and believe there is true potential with her. She told me I am the nicest man she has dated in years. She is an absolutely amazing and beautiful woman, and she is active in her church. Best woman I have ever dated. I know it's just a matter of time before she finds a job. She mentioned I could follow her, but she just can't stay, unless by some miracle some other opportunity opens up in town. I'm terrified at the thought of moving, although I don't have children, and there is nothing holding me back other than maybe having difficulty finding work wherever she goes. I'm afraid I'll move and things could fall apart, leaving me stuck in a strange place far away from my family and friends. On the other hand if I don't go, I'll be letting go of what may be the most amazing woman in my life. She is only the second woman I have told I loved. I can feel my heart breaking over her already. I pray God gives me the guidance to make the decision that aligns with his plan for me, and that if his plan is for me to not be with this woman that he mends my broken heart.
I admit, I have been angry with God for the misfortunes in my life over that last few years, and especially now, when it seemed like things were finally improving. I know life is full of ups and downs. It just seems like there have been way more downs lately, and some of it is my fault. I am thankful for the good things God has done in my life. I just pray that He calms the storms of misfortune in my life, if only for a while, and that he does some truly amazing things in my life.
I ask that you please pray for me during this stressful and seemingly hopeless time. I don't normally reach out like this, but I felt moved to do so.