Bumaengor
Disciple of Prayer
Its been 15 years I've never been in a relationship. For year I've wanted a beautiful girlfriend whom I hope to be my future wife. I've faced rejection, humiliation and regrets for the countless sacrifices I've made for my potential partner but they've showed me their true colours at the end. I've detested Jehovah, and I developed a deep hatred towards love and myself. Enemies and non believers were able to get this gift, but not me? I don't like comparing myself to others but I envy them and their gifts of a relationship. I even felt sick when my roommate was able to get a relationship so easily and she doesn't have to do anything. Why them and not me? Why do you torture me when I walk on the streets and I see couples, both young and old, when I walk home alone? Please ask God to give me that beautiful and precious gift now. I cannot wait any longer. 15 years is enough for me or anyone. I have reached past my limits of me waiting. Its now or never, I cant give extra years.