Shaalkaari
Humble Prayer Warrior
It is over to many vibes have been stolen. Some people just aren’t meant to be near me or in my lifetime. The phone I just bought even doesn’t work properly if it’s not one it’s the other. I have came to the conclusion there is absolutely no way I can go back to ever where I was with any of the men I loved before. It is just to destroyed inside of me my vibes my mind spine time my being even. I have realized I was denied so much no wonder I don’t want to be alive. I have put last and not ever noticed not taken care of even properly. I get it now why iam the way iam I have been ripped out of socket so much it’s absolutely ridiculous. I have to come to realization I’m just used for anything everyone can get out of me. I will never be taken seriously by whoever the Lord God Almighty might have seen as happiness or dreamed of I’m not that flavor of the month. I’m to the point I have made up my mind I’m left behind always as the best friend not the Leading Lady well Forget that crap time it’s done. The men The Lord designed me for definitely don’t deserve me nor do they care to stay faithful to me it’s been years there so selfish from going else where it’s waisted breathe I think of mine at this point unfortunately Lord God Almighty. I will let ###, ###, ###, and ### at this point have there full KARMA out come whatever it may be and Gods fullest judgement justice on them not listening to me not definitely wanting to stay with me and it being carried on as such joke for God Almighty it’s absolutely ridiculous for my life. I don’t deserve there hatred towards me and definitely not taken seriously like I said screw it I have to know when to throw in the towel. I have to accept the truth I wasn’t the same as them they always passed me on to someone else or followed to screw someone else it’s always been about them to be with someone else. I have decided they are way to different then me on way to many levels and I’m not the same person I used to be at all from all of this. I know for sure God Almighty and I definitely cannot love ### ever the same again being ripped apart the way he decided to leave for so many different women it’s just so awful and hurtful I’m ok now it’s been hella years and I cried so hard I couldn’t come back I know that for sure or the Lord for that part like I said were a package deal. Once I’m gone I’m gone I can’t come back after you break my heart to many times and Gods as well. Next ###, ###, I kept trying and crying and praying and not understanding the truth of it still don’t. However I tried then with ### still don’t understand that either all I know I did my best for both of them wanted them well soul well. I still to this very day don’t even know where they even are no location no idea no relationship could even form properly. 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