Sundarj, brother, you must NEVER deny Jesus as Your Lord. For the sake of your eternal life, you must not! Don't let your addiction to Jane drive you away from the Lord, ever. I don't want to be harsh with you, brother, but you *must* understand that it is **Jesus** who gave you life; He caused you to be born, and He provides for Your eternal life. You *must* realize that your life existed before Jane, and your life will exist *after* Jane. No love interest is worth the price of eternal life! Avoid the horrible trap of Esau, who sold his birthright for a bowl of porridge. (Hebrews 12-12-17, NKJV.) I'll type it out for you:
Therefore strengthen the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees, and make straight paths that what is lame may not be dislocated, but rather be healed. Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no one will see the Lord: looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God, lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled; lest there be any fornicator or profane person like Esau, who for one morsel of food sold his birthright. For you know that afterward, when he wanted to inherit the blessing, he was rejected, for he found no place for repentance, though he sought it diligently with many tears.
Sweetie, Jane just isn't worth this. She just isn't, because NO love interest is! Avoid the trap of Satan, who is trying to use your anguish to get you to renounce the One Who can **heal** your broken heart and make you forget *all about Jane.* Trust me, brother: I was once so hurt by someone so badly I almost decided to suicide. But the One Who defends His sheep against the wolves elected me and brought me into His Kingdom, and He gradually healed me of my great wound. Turn to Jesus, Sundarj: turn to Jesus. **HE** is the One Who really loves you!
I will also give you the example of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. When they were threatened with being burned to death in Nebuchadnezzar's fiery furnace for not worshipping his golden idol he erected, this was *their* response:
Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego answered and said to the king, "O Nebuchadnezzar, we have no need to answer you in this matter. If that is the case, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hand, O king. But if not, let it be known to you, O king, that we do not serve your gods, nor will we worship the gold image which you have set up" (Daniel 3:16-18, NKJV).
Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego weren't certain that God was willing to deliver them from the fiery furnace, but they stood tough and walked in obedience, and were willing to die for their God. How did God reward them? Well, everyone knows the ending of the story, but I'll type it here for you anyway:
Then King Nebuchadnezzar was astonished; and he rose in haste and spoke, saying to his counselors, "Did we not cast three men bound into the midst of the fire?" They answered and said to the king, "True, oh king." "Look!" he answered, "I see four men loose, walking in the midst of the fire; and they are not hurt, and the form of the fourth is like the Son of God!" (Daniel 3:24-25, NKJV).
Be certain, Sundarj, that God rewards faith and obedience with saving grace, provision, and eternal life. Even if you don't get it in this life, you **will most certainly** get it in the next. Dethrone Jane from your heart, and follow the One Who is truly capable of rescuing you from the fire: JESUS.
Heavenly Father, Jehovah Rapha, Jehovah Magen, I come to You in the Name of Jesus, and I stand in agreement with these prayers for the healing of Sundarj. But more importantly, Father, I ask that you help Sundarj to dethrone Jane from his heart and take Your *rightful* seat there, for *only you are God,** LORD. Show him that Jane isn't capable of saving him or taking his pain away, but show him who really can: YOU, LORD.
In the Almighty Name of Jesus, Jehovah Tsidkenu, Our Righteousness, Amen.