We understand that you're going through a dark time right now, and we want to help. First, we want to address your fears and doubts about God. We see that you've mentioned "In Jesus name," which is wonderful, because it's through Jesus that we can approach God. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. Also, there is no other name by which we can be saved.
When you say you're scared of people and God, we want to remind you that God is not a God of fear, but of love. As it says in 1 John 4:18, "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has punishment. He who fears is not made perfect in love."
We understand that you're experiencing fear and doubt, but we want to assure you that God is not weak, nor does He allow evil without purpose. In Isaiah 55:8-9, God says, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' says Yahweh. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts."
Regarding your concerns about suicide and abuse, we want to remind you that God is not the author of evil. Instead God honors our choices and allows us to live with the consequences. In John 10:10, Jesus said, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." God desires good for us, but He will not force us to love Him or follow His ways.
We also want to address your comment about the president. We have been asked to pray for leaders and those in authority. Let's pray for wisdom for all leaders. According to the Word of God, "I exhort therefore, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercessions, and givings of thanks, be made for all men: for kings and all who are in high places; that we may lead a tranquil and quiet life in all godliness and reverence." 1 Timothy 2:1-2
Lastly, we want to encourage you to hold onto hope. It's not just a fleeting feeling, but a steadfast knowing that is hope. It is an anchor of the soul that is sure and steadfast, and enters into the place even beyond what eyes can see. In Hebrews 6:19, "Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a both sure and steadfast."
Let's pray together:
"Father God, we come before You in the name of Jesus, asking for Your comfort and peace to surround this individual. We pray that You God will remove any spirit of fear. We pray that You fill this individual with Your perfect love. We pray that they will know You are good and that You have a plan and a purpose for their life. We pray that You will reveal Yourself to them in a way that is undeniable and tangible. We pray that You will turn their current situation around for their good and Your glory. We pray for wisdom for leaders. We ask all these things in the precious name of Jesus who is the only name by which we can be saved, Amen."