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rmoore71
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I am in desperate need of prayer. For the past year, i have been out of work. I have mostly been living off my unemployed benefits. I have not been able to find work because everytime the prospective job I am interviewing for runs a background check, they deny me employment due to a petty theft charge that is on my record from back in 97 when I was living in Roanoke Virginia. During the time I have been out of work, I was able to pursue a life long dream of mines and have 3 poetry books published under my pen name. Since my work has been released, I have yet to be compensated and not able to afford legal representation to pursue taking any action but I would prefer not to go that route unless absolutely necessary. The department of Job and family services sent me a letter two weeks ago after approving me for an additional extension, they are now no longer going to continue my benefits which was the only way I could pay my bills including my car note which I almost have paid off. To make matters worse, I get two letters from the IRS stating that I owe them money which I cannot afford to pay right now. I am buried in a mountain of debt and don't know what to do anymore. It seems like everytime I take a step forward, I find myself taking two steps back not able to come up with any solutions to these problems. I have been receiving confirmation on many occasions that seeing I am a writer, I should take a leap of faith and move to New York but with the cost of living, I have to absolutely be certain that is where God wants me to be. I feel like the walls are closing in and I have contemplated commiting suicide, all of my life, I have had to fight some tough battles and my will is weak right now, I cannot sleep at night and have become addicted to Nyquil, Sominex and Ibuprofen PM. Two years ago, I was diagnosed with a bi polar/anixiety condition which has affected my learning over the years. When learning something new, in some cases, I catch on pretty fast but in other cases, some task take me a little longer to catch on to. I am very embarrassed about my situation and don't know whom or where else to turn to. I feel like I am standing at the ledge and ready to jump. Please pray for me.
Yours Truly
Desparate & Broken to pieces
Yours Truly
Desparate & Broken to pieces