Brackage
Disciple of Prayer
In debt right now and liking a married man.I really need a miracle.
To keep the story short after my graduation I had ridiculous ups and down in my life including bad relations with my parents and my mean sister and all this I was just not lucky to have enough intelligence and wisdom as my sister had.
My current situation is I'm working in my dad's Institution like an owner and not doing much at all.There is this married guy (we've been long known acquaintances and he had an arranged marriage) and me who accidentally started liking each other however the last few days his actions suggest as though he's trying to play mind games (I feel so ashamed to be thought of as a woman who deserves to be played dirty mind games with and laughed upon)
On the other hand my parents are looking sir a match for me.
I sometimes seriously feel I want to go back in time and change all my bad luck and bad reputation and instability to good things as much as my sister has had.
It's so not fair for my sister to have all good things for herself and try to dominate me and me to be such a sick ruined person.
We both sister coming out of same mothers womb and same flesh and body can be so different.
If honestly everything is possible with God and he is a loving father then he needs to change my past so that I'm not labelled as a cheap ,unintelligent ,slut.
I so badly want this married man in my life because I like him and I do not see how does one even get married in an arranged marriage.Its also not fai to me compared to other woman who do all make up be all cunning and yet be prosperous and I no matter how hard I struggle I get nothing but s***
To keep the story short after my graduation I had ridiculous ups and down in my life including bad relations with my parents and my mean sister and all this I was just not lucky to have enough intelligence and wisdom as my sister had.
My current situation is I'm working in my dad's Institution like an owner and not doing much at all.There is this married guy (we've been long known acquaintances and he had an arranged marriage) and me who accidentally started liking each other however the last few days his actions suggest as though he's trying to play mind games (I feel so ashamed to be thought of as a woman who deserves to be played dirty mind games with and laughed upon)
On the other hand my parents are looking sir a match for me.
I sometimes seriously feel I want to go back in time and change all my bad luck and bad reputation and instability to good things as much as my sister has had.
It's so not fair for my sister to have all good things for herself and try to dominate me and me to be such a sick ruined person.
We both sister coming out of same mothers womb and same flesh and body can be so different.
If honestly everything is possible with God and he is a loving father then he needs to change my past so that I'm not labelled as a cheap ,unintelligent ,slut.
I so badly want this married man in my life because I like him and I do not see how does one even get married in an arranged marriage.Its also not fai to me compared to other woman who do all make up be all cunning and yet be prosperous and I no matter how hard I struggle I get nothing but s***