Aparchologeo
Prayer Warrior
In case you can't tell by my actions and words, I have many "mental head wounds".- I see things that may be untrue, or for all I know- may actually be very true. Who knows!-But, there are two truths I do know,- that heart sinking to the depts of my body, the feeling of deep sickly warmth that pools onto me, a jumping and fliching rabbit trying to run- it all comes from somewhere, it comes from this household. Who it came from? Some days I know, other days I don't. But you can't internalize nothing. You can't internalize another person's innocence if it is true. My perspection came from somewhere.- My second truth is that I live and am alive through the grace of God. For what grand purpose I serve- for what purpose God keeps my twisted and blood clotted heart beating for, I may never know while my conscious lives here. Maybe I'll be blessed with that insight when I'm 37, or 89, or some other age that I will be given.- it is through the grace, mercy, and perfect love of God that I am able to laugh, smile, and find it in my infected and tainted heart to give love to others in any kind of a pure way. I know few truths in this time, truths that stand the waves, truths not made of sand.- but these two truths I know. Through joy and misery, they are always with me.