Anonymous
Beloved of All
In advance id like to thank who ever takes the time to read my prayer request and helping a stranger. I am in a place where i feel like when i pray to God i feel punished even if im thanking him for a good day. When i think of God i think negatively and i dont want to feel that anymore I just wish he would make me brighter and feel better as a person i know i have to do the work but i want him to see im hurting so bad trying to do it. I also feel like im not valued in this world i want to be loved more than what i can supply but love feels like every one is evil and every one wants me in this box that has no capacity for me. I feel like people see me and decide im lesser than any one else in this world and i dont deserve to be treated good im always nice no matter what and in my head i felt like i wanted to give people love and thats what God wanted me to do make people feel better than i ever did I feel looked over and unwanted used and abused literally I feel like every one is evil and i see their true intentions i feel like im only as good as i supply and even thats not good enough. Im tired of this cycle i need this to end because mentally im at my end