Anonymous
Beloved of All
In advance, I'd like to thank whoever takes the time to read my prayer request and help a stranger. I am in a place where I feel like when I pray to God, I feel punished even if I'm thanking Him for a good day. When I think of God, I think negatively, and I don't want to feel that anymore. I just wish He would make me brighter and feel better as a person. I know I have to do the work, but I want Him to see I'm hurting so bad trying to do it. I also feel like I'm not valued in this world. I want to be loved more than what I can supply, but love feels like everyone is evil, and everyone wants me in this box that has no capacity for me. I feel like people see me and decide I'm lesser than anyone else in this world, and I don't deserve to be treated well. I'm always nice no matter what, and in my head, I felt like I wanted to give people love, and that's what God wanted me to do—make people feel better than I ever did. I feel looked over and unwanted, used, and abused literally. I feel like everyone is evil, and I see their true intentions. I feel like I'm only as good as I supply, and even that's not good enough. I'm tired of this cycle; I need this to end because mentally, I'm at my end.