I'm working on stopping my antidepressant, a low dose of cymbalta. I'm a Christian, but I'm going through a really tough time. I'm forgetful, angry, irritable, can't sleep well, and am always in a bad mood. I live alone, so thankfully this isn't affecting others. I also have a bad back so I'm in pain a lot. I keep remembering things I've done that hurt others rather than focusing on knowing I'm forgiven. I yell a lot. I even yell at my kitties when they so something that annoys me. I'm embarrassed to admit that I even swear at the Lord and call him names when I get frustrated and angry. I had a really bad cold that turned into pneumonia, but I think I'm over that. But I know that can cause some mental, cognitive issues. I keep waking up 7 or 8 times a night, and I lay there upset when I can't easily fall back to sleep. I'm also in some financial trouble, so that's causing a lot of stress. I just want all of these bad days to be over. I do manage keeping up my daily devotionals and my church tithe. I'm part of a prayer group, so I'm always praying for those who have asked for prayer in our small group. That's how I honor the Lord. I just don't understand why I feel so lousy all the time. I hope this ends soon.. I keep praying something truly good will happen to me. I have to tell you, this hopefully temporary memory loss will go soon. It's honestly frightening me, though I know the medication I was taking can cause that. I just want to be back to the person I was a few weeks ago, before I got sick. I was never quite this irritable and angry, and even foul mouthed. Seeing this change has been really frightening for me, but I think the antidepressant was causing more issues. It will take a couple of weeks to stop it, though I've only been on it two months. I'm just asking for prayer for the Lord to draw me to him to get through this. That's not true. I need prayer to get over this as soon as possible. It's really scaring me. I don't like who I've become. It seems as though I'm being attacked with so many financial issue, health issues, and so much all at once. Please pray for me. I know this will end eventually, but it's so hard going through all this at one time. I keep praying that something truly wonderful will happen for me, unexpectedly good. A good night's sleep would be nice for a change. I'm sorry to be rambling like this, but I thank you so much for listening to me and for praying for me. God bless you for being here.