Diamartyroe
Disciple of Prayer
my name is ###, I am just out of prison after spending 14 months in it, I spent 23 hours a day behind a cell door. when I first went in I caused trouble and hurt many people with my words and was heartbroken after losing a relationship, as The chaplains started to visit me my life and I started reading the Bible my Life started to get better and better and I could feel peace and contentment, Now that I am back on the outside, I feel so lost and alone, I feel isolated, I have just got out 3 days ago and I went on a drinking binge, which resulted in me losing 2000 due to fraud and someone stealing my bank card, This money was to help me get a house for rent and start a business, I do not want to let my family down and I have been to mass the past 2 days, I feel at peace listening to God's words and reading the gospel, but then the next 10 minutes after I feel guilt and shame, I Have repented for my sins and I have shared them all with Jesus, I just want a happy life with a loving woman to company me, I want a family, and I want help, I'm so lost and alone and I beg you Jesus to help me. I am sick of the uncertainties and feeling like I am living a meaningless life, I don't know what I want to do with my life and I have cried so many times the past few days and the past 14 months was the most lonely journey of my life, I miss my ex girlfriend and I am heartbroken, my grandad has took a fit and is in hospital, my dad has Parkinson's disease, my mum is constantly stressed that I am going to relapse. I'M terrified of Satan and hell and evil, I just want peace. love. happiness, as I said I have been close to Christ with prayer and reading the Bible constantly, and I don't even know how to put this prayer request into words, my mind is a crazy place, but I know my heart is good because I want the best for people. Please help me Jesus Christ