Saballiffe
Prayer Partner
I want to start off by saying I’m grateful for the things that I do have, though I am always asking for prayer regarding what I dont. I have been trying to make a conscious effort not to let anxiety rule and to add biblical affirmations to my morning prayer. I know I couldn’t do or be anything without God in my life, but it all gets to be so much.
The issue at my job is constantly escalating; I’m being picked on by those from the outside looking in who can see it. The person in charge doesn't ever read my proof or explanation, just asking me questions accusingly, though the answers are always in front of them. I have begun applying for other jobs, trying to claim a new job by February. Because the stress and anxiety this job causes aren’t sustainable, especially when my boss admonishes me for taking off from medical procedures.
I have court for a debt I am being sued for; I provided proof that I paid for hardship insurance and qualified and applied, but it wasn’t canceled. When I called after the holidays to verify the status, they had closed the dispute without notifying me. I have no problem paying off my debts. I am currently paying 3 atm, which has me up against the wall. I’m just asking that it be canceled as promised or in a reasonable amount instead of all the interest fees that were added after my cancellation request.
I’m grateful I have a job that allows me insurance, but it seems once I actually use it, everything happens. This month will be beyond tight purely for medical bills; the medication caused a reaction I am also dealing with. I have an appointment this week for the last part of the procedure; I am praying I can pay whatever is owed up front and that I won't be down long enough to be off work since my boss doesn’t understand. But currently, I’m in pain, my stomach is in knots, and I have stress hives.
Due to feeling like crap and deep depression, I haven’t been able to maintain the apartment as I should or normally would. I attempted to clean some and did, but it feels like I ended up making a bigger mess that I don't have the energy to fix at the moment. I just pray that after all I went through when they do a maintenance check, I don't end up evicted. I feel like the office has been waiting for any reason since the last court date. I have been paying my rent faithfully, so they can’t use that as an excuse.
I just want some peace and to put my anxiety to rest. I am not able to sleep and grinding my teeth, which is exacerbating some of my medical issues. I already deal with seasonal depression and knowing I'll be alone for the holidays. I just want to know that I am secure in something; it always feels like something is on the precipice of falling apart, or it is all happening at once. I don't want to have to wear a mask anymore at work, and when out, I want to feel that happiness. I don't want to feel shame for all the things I neglected while fighting deep depression or when trying to balance coming back to the working world. It just constantly feels like my efforts aren’t reasonable enough.
I dont even quite know what to call what im asking for , peace? Deliverance? Grace? Happiness? Security? Maybe a bit of them all. And probably to learn to forgive myself.
The issue at my job is constantly escalating; I’m being picked on by those from the outside looking in who can see it. The person in charge doesn't ever read my proof or explanation, just asking me questions accusingly, though the answers are always in front of them. I have begun applying for other jobs, trying to claim a new job by February. Because the stress and anxiety this job causes aren’t sustainable, especially when my boss admonishes me for taking off from medical procedures.
I have court for a debt I am being sued for; I provided proof that I paid for hardship insurance and qualified and applied, but it wasn’t canceled. When I called after the holidays to verify the status, they had closed the dispute without notifying me. I have no problem paying off my debts. I am currently paying 3 atm, which has me up against the wall. I’m just asking that it be canceled as promised or in a reasonable amount instead of all the interest fees that were added after my cancellation request.
I’m grateful I have a job that allows me insurance, but it seems once I actually use it, everything happens. This month will be beyond tight purely for medical bills; the medication caused a reaction I am also dealing with. I have an appointment this week for the last part of the procedure; I am praying I can pay whatever is owed up front and that I won't be down long enough to be off work since my boss doesn’t understand. But currently, I’m in pain, my stomach is in knots, and I have stress hives.
Due to feeling like crap and deep depression, I haven’t been able to maintain the apartment as I should or normally would. I attempted to clean some and did, but it feels like I ended up making a bigger mess that I don't have the energy to fix at the moment. I just pray that after all I went through when they do a maintenance check, I don't end up evicted. I feel like the office has been waiting for any reason since the last court date. I have been paying my rent faithfully, so they can’t use that as an excuse.
I just want some peace and to put my anxiety to rest. I am not able to sleep and grinding my teeth, which is exacerbating some of my medical issues. I already deal with seasonal depression and knowing I'll be alone for the holidays. I just want to know that I am secure in something; it always feels like something is on the precipice of falling apart, or it is all happening at once. I don't want to have to wear a mask anymore at work, and when out, I want to feel that happiness. I don't want to feel shame for all the things I neglected while fighting deep depression or when trying to balance coming back to the working world. It just constantly feels like my efforts aren’t reasonable enough.
I dont even quite know what to call what im asking for , peace? Deliverance? Grace? Happiness? Security? Maybe a bit of them all. And probably to learn to forgive myself.