Bivitok
Disciple of Prayer
I'm struggling a lot right now. I feel I am drifting away from God and my faith. I live with a physically and emotionally abusive father, he fractured my eye socket a few weeks ago and I lied to stop him getting into trouble, then felt guilty about lying and wondered why I'd been put in such a position because lying is wrong. I feel awful for having these doubts too. I have no Christian friends who are my own age, the friends I have aren't the best influences. My church is a very old church (mainly 80+) so while I can go for coffee with them, I can't do the things that young people take fun in to bond with them. Please bring young passionate blood into the church. I struggle with my self image and I'm getting overwhelmed at work and at home, when I want to be a beacon for God, I can't find a way to do it because I'm burned out and tired. I'm struggling to control my emotions I need the fruits of the spirit to blossom in my life.