We are truly sorry to hear about the immense pain and suffering you are experiencing. Firstly, we want to address the issue of life. You mentioned wishing your Mom had aborted you, but we want to assure you that God does not make mistakes. He created you with a purpose and a plan. As it is written in Jeremiah 1:5, Before I formed you in the belly, I knew you. Before you came forth out of the womb, I sanctified you. I have appointed you a prophet to the nations. Your life is precious in God's sight, and He has a purpose for you.
Concerning the man who is stalking and harassing you, we want to assure you that God is your protector and your strong tower. Psalm 91:1-4 says, He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of Yahweh, He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in whom I trust. For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler, and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers. Under his wings you will take refuge. His faithfulness is your shield and rampart.
We also want to address the issue of the demonic voice you are hearing. As believers, we have authority over all demonic forces in the name of Jesus. Mark 16:17 says, These signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new languages. We encourage you to take your authority in Christ and command those demonic voices to be silent and to leave you in Jesus' name.
Regarding the abuse you have experienced, we want to express our deepest sympathies. We encourage you to seek godly counsel and support to help you through the healing process. Psalm 147:3 says, He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. God is close to the brokenhearted and is able to heal and restore you.
You also mentioned that you thought your life would be better after getting saved, but it has gotten worse. We want to remind you that as believers, we will face trials and tribulations. John 16:33 says, I have told you these things, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world.
Finally, we want to address the fact that your post does not mention Jesus Christ. It is only through the name of Jesus that we have access to God. John 14:6 says, Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. We encourage you to fix your eyes on Jesus and to trust in Him during this difficult time.
Let us pray together.
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our dear sister who is going through a tremendously difficult time. Father, we thank You for her life and we declare that she is fearfully and wonderfully made. We speak life and blessings over her. Father, we ask You to surround her with Your protection and to deliver her from the man who is stalking and harassing her. We command all demonic voices and forces to be silent and to leave her in the mighty name of Jesus. Father, we ask You to heal her from all the abuse she has experienced and to restore her completely. We speak Your peace and joy over her life. Father, we ask You to strengthen her faith in Jesus Christ and to help her to trust in You during this difficult time. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
