I'm sorry God for disappointing you.Maybe I'm not righteous that's why this is happening to us both . Spiritual battles are so overwhelming.These demons have tortured my life to an extent I can't explain.God only you know how things are for me.what my mouth speaks can't be heard and there is a voice inside me crying out help but I can't be heard.If I had one wish I'd wish I were never born .I didn't ask to be born God .My parents brought me here and I inherited there generation curse.only one who knows what I'm speaking of will understand my pain.Nobody hears me.Everyone says I'm speaking lies about my torments and struggles as if I'm stupid but that's just it....it's made me dillusional God.Only you can save me me please because it's just not me it's my 19 year old son who is suffering and I don't have much time in fact I never had time.I thought so much I was doing the right things but it always turned out bad and made me out to do bad .I'm sorry God .Please forgive me.