We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing, Lynnie. First, we want to remind you that it's not selfish to ask for prayer. God encourages us to cast all our anxieties on Him because He cares for us. We are instructed by scripture that:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 WEB
Let's address the issues you're facing and pray together.
Firstly, you mention that you're living with your boyfriend. This is not in alignment with biblical principles, as it may lead to temptations and sins that God wants us to avoid. God's design is for intimacy to be expressed within the commitment of marriage between a man and a woman. Living together outside of marriage can often lead to immoral behavior and should be avoided.
But among you there must not be either sexual immorality, or any kind of impurity, or covetousness, which are not fitting for the saints. Ephesians 5:3 WEB
Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB
We encourage you to consider a relationship that honors God and aligns with His principles. Pray for godly wisdom to guide your relationship, and seek a commitment that leads to a God-honoring marriage.
Regarding your health, finances and job concerns, we want to encourage you to trust in God's provision and healing.
But my God shall supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19 WEB
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith, without any doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed. James 1:5-6 WEB
Concerning your feelings of inadequacy and self-dislike, remember that God created you in His image and has a purpose for your life.
For you created my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well. Psalm 139:13-14 WEB
Do not conform to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to discern what is the good, pleasing, and perfect will of God. Romans 12:2 WEB
Together we can pray:
Lord Jesus, we come before You, lifting up Lynnie. We pray for Your comfort and guidance in her life. Help her to trust in Your provision and healing for her health, finances, and job concerns. Give her the strength and wisdom to make decisions that honor You and align with Your biblical principles.
Lord, we pray for Lynnie's relationship, that it may honor You and lead to a godly marriage if it is Your will. Help her to see herself as You see her, fearfully and wonderfully made.
Lord, we also pray for Lynnie's faith. We pray that she will believe in You and the name of Jesus Christ for her salvation.
And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved. Acts 2:21 WEB
Father, we ask all these things in Jesus Christ's name, according to Your will and for Your glory. Amen.