thank you for posting this as you were saying how I felt. I can so relate but must remind myself... the enemy is a liar author of confusion. Do Not listen to His lies. That is all they are. I am praying for your thoughts established by the Lord as you commit your works unto Him.
King James BibleProverbs 16:3
Commit thy works unto the LORD, and thy thoughts shall be established.
King James Bible 2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of
power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
He has power over our thoughts

You are not alone!
praying for freedom for you in your mind by Christ. May He always fill you with His Spirit, being of a sound mind of love of power.
KJV
Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.
Just keep serving Him... and the devil will flee... Greater is He that is In You. The Lord deliver you from all unclean thoughts thoughts of torment and deliver you from all satanic captivity in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. May He bring all your thoughts into captivity to obedience to Christ.
For His praise Glory and power.
1 John 4:4
King James Version
4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.
You have the mind of Christ. Christ dwells in you. May the Lord guide you into all truth. with His voice everyday and all day and deliver you from the enemy. The Lord give you
His Spirit, being of a sound mind, of power and of love. I am praying for you to be delivered of lack of concentration or focus (all that's needed is direction. committing all our works to the Lord.
King James BibleProverbs 16:3
Commit thy works unto the LORD, and thy thoughts shall be established.
God give us direction may He make clear for us to know what His WILL is at all times (with this comes peace His Peace.) The Lord direct your steps and your thoughts. The Lord's Holy Spirit come upon your mind and body and life. in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. I plead His Holy blood upon your thoughts mind will emotions and body. May He use you greatly for His Glory and deliver you out of all satanic bondage in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Matthew 6:25-33
King James Version
25 Therefore I say unto you,
Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek

for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
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But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.