mmagruder
Prayer Warrior
I'm losing all faith. I have prayed for everything my entire life....prayed for my father when he had cancer, my dog when he was sick, to get into school and pass boards, to be pregnant and have a healthy pregnancy. Literally everything. And every single freaking time I have to lose something in order to gain something. I don't get it. I have b n praying for a year and half for a baby and to be pregnant. Nothing. Freaking nothing. Is this a cruel joke God likes to play. I work for the poor population and I see people on drugs have 6 or 7 kids no problem. And for us nothing. What gives?! I give and try o do my best and be the best I can be and I get screwed every damn time. I'm just tired and bitter. Very bitter. Seeing everyone around me not even pray have everything presented for them on a platter and I pray damnit and put my faith in God and nothing. Just pray for me. That I guess I don't lose total faith. It's almost out the door. Pray that I can have a baby ......evidently god would rather give some crackheads some kids. I dont understand. Please help me understand