NeedHelpNow
Prayer Partner
I'm just so tired. Every time I get even the smallest amount of money, it has to go toward trying to minimize some crisis. I seems like no matter how hard I try or how much I pray, I keep getting poorer and more desperate...and the possibility of anything ever getting any better just looks more hopeless. I find myself begging God to just take me home so I don't have to commit suicide like my brother and my cousin did in a desperate attempt to just make it all stop. I tell myself that as long as I am breathing, God must not be done with me - that as a child of God I must be inherently worthy of God's love, but as my life becomes more and more impossible, that gets harder and harder to believe. I don't know what I am doing wrong or what is wrong with me or how to make it stop being so hard to be alive.