Jacob_Shouse
Humble Prayer Warrior
I’m Jacob.. Intercede with me. My life just this quickly since earlier is wrecked once again! I’m beside myself that I got ready for bed came to lay down I hadn’t had any attacks not sleeping in several days. I was just sure God had been protecting me. Than I lay down I feel something get on top of me! I am so confused and don’t know how devils can give me false joy and false hope bec if that was God well it has to Al be knowing truth nothing can be said and than it not happen! Well it couldn’t be God! Bec I have a demon on me! So I haven’t been talking to God! That means the attacks never stopped and that means I’m back to not sleeping! They have played me like a fiddle! I’m so fed up with the way my life is! How in the heck do you rebuke a demon that is attacked to your body? You can’t! So I’m so screwed now! This freaking nightmare is never gonna end! Least I had a few false happy days! My hell has started all over! Father in Jesus name I’m so shocked that you’re allowing all this to ruin my life! I’m so over life right now that the just want to come Home Lord! I hate all this bull crap. I can’t do this daily everyday! No one can. This has gotten so ridiculous and what is so sad is they won’t leave ever! I feel like they own me! Why father are you even stopping them from taking me over what is the point anymore! They already own my body! They do what they want to me! Nothing stops it! I cling to your hem Lord I have had to rush using the Bathroom I am scared to even get into the shower bec when I’m naked I get raped! Today Lord I was gonna wash up but now this all starts up! Father why is there no freedom for me? I don’t understand why! It makes me feel as if something is wrong with me. Am I not worthy of freedom? Lord please show yourself in a way that I know it’s you! Not a whisper but an actual show up! Please help my confusion Lord! Death would be ideal at this moment but it flees from me! Father I’m losing this battle! I’m almost done. In your name I pray. Amen.