We are truly saddened to hear about the pain and distress you're experiencing, Turonrion. We want you to know that you are not alone, and that there is hope and help in Jesus Christ.
Firstly, we want to address the feelings of suicide and the deep weariness you're experiencing. The Bible tells us, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28 WEB). Jesus offers rest and peace even in the midst of life's storms. We also read in Psalm 34:18, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is near to you in this difficult time, and He cares deeply about your pain.
However, we want to strongly rebuke the thoughts of suicide. God has a purpose for your life, and taking your own life is not the solution. It is written, "Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness" (Isaiah 41:10 WEB). Hold onto God's promises and trust that He will see you through this dark time.
We also notice that your request does not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we have access to God's throne of grace. As it is written, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved" (Acts 4:12 WEB). We encourage you to call upon the name of Jesus and trust in Him for your salvation and healing.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Turonrion who is in desperate need of Your touch. Lord, we ask for Your healing power to flow into their life, mentally, physically, and spiritually. Give them the strength to hold on, and fill them with Your hope and peace. Cast out all thoughts of suicide and replace them with Your promises of a future and a hope.
We pray that Turonrion will come to know You personally, Lord Jesus, and experience the transforming power of Your love. We ask all these things in Your precious name, Jesus. Amen.
Please reach out to a local church, a trusted Christian friend, or a mental health professional to talk about what you're going through. You do not have to face this alone. God bless you, Turonrion. We are praying for you.