Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have made for myself an imaginary wife, because I am waiting for the real thing and it seems to help me cope, but I am afraid I have developed unrealistic expectations from a real spouse if I ever find one. I have an ideal image of what she should look like, what her personality is like, and even her likes and dislikes, but I realize finding someone real who looks, thinks, and acts like imaginary spouse is not only unrealistic, it is almost imposible. It makes me not want to leave the fake for the reality. On that note, I also find myself wanting to be with women who I can't realistically be with, i.e. fictional characters or women that I just see. I have prayed for a Christian girl friend that I can find true and deep companionship with. To be fair it's not all about looks, for me, it's more about just finding a girl who is weird like me that understands me and clicks well with me. I have been waiting for this friend for a long time, and have not let anyone like that. Just fair weather friends. I have just about lost hope. I envy men who have a best girl friend, that is there wing girl so to speak. I wish I had that growing up. I hope I do develope that relationship someday. Please pray that God would send me a real lady friend, not a fair weather friend or a aquaintence, a real friend that will want to be my friend, and won't misunderstand me or think I'm weird or a loser. Please pray for me, In Jesus name, Amen.