Maboisha
Prayer Partner
I'm finally ready to tell them man I love that I like him (maybe hold off on using the word "love" for a little while) after 5.5 months! I'm absolutely terrified! I woke up this morning & randomly thought, "Am I about to do this? I think I am!" I have been thinking about it & more importantly, praying about it, for quite a while now! I just feel like God had been wanting me to wait & now He's wanting me to go for it! When I prayed for signs, I prayed that if it's meant to be, I'd see a green butterfly & a yellow lizard (2 things of never seen before). If I see them within 5 days of each other, I need to tell him immediately. If I see them farther apart than that, I need to continue to pray about how & when to approach it. I prayed that if we're not meant to be together, I wouldn't see these animals. I saw them about 3 weeks or so apart, so I've been praying hard since then! (I was praying before but, you know what I mean.) I've been having a lot of thoughts the last few days about just telling him someone soon. My mom has been telling me all along that she didn't think I should tell him yet but today, she said, "I think you ought to tell him!" It's like everything is lining up to show me that God's telling me it's time to tell him! I am scared & I'm searching for the right words & the right timing. Please pray for me to have the wisdom & guidance I need from the Lord to know exactly what to say & when to say it! Please pray that I can have peace, calmness, bravery, courage, & strength! Please pray that the man I love will also have courage, strength, peace, bravery, guidance, & an open heart. Please pray that I would be ok no matter the outcome (& that I would have some clarity if he doesn't like me back, because I would have a hard time with that after receiving so many signs, including very specific ones I asked for). Please pray that this wonderful man will be happy, no matter how this plays out & that he knows his happiness is of the utmost importance to me, because I love him unconditionally & only want the best for him! Please pray that God will guide us wherever this takes us & that we will always remember to listen to Him & keep Him first in our relationship! Thank you so much for all your prayers!