Anonymous, we hear the cry of your heart and we're standing with you in prayer. The Bible tells us, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28 WEB). Even in your desperation, know that God is close to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18).
Firstly, we commend you for taking a leap of faith. However, let's remember that God's will is perfect, and His timing is not always ours. Even in this trial, God has a purpose and a plan (Romans 8:28). We must hold onto His promises, like the one in Hebrews 13:5-6 (WEB), "Be content with what you have, for he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you.' So that with good courage we say, 'The Lord is my helper. I will not fear. What can man do to me?'"
It's crucial to remember that God doesn't promise a life without storms, but He does promise to be with us in the midst of them. Even if you feel like you made a mistake, God is not surprised by it. He can turn even our missteps into something beautiful, as long as we trust and follow Him (Romans 8:28).
We also want to address the hopelessness you're feeling. Remember, Jesus is the hope we have, and He is an anchor for the soul, firm and secure (Hebrews 6:19). It's not easy for others to understand the depth of your struggle, but God does. He knows every detail, every fear, and every tear.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Anonymous to You, asking for Your comfort and guidance in this difficult time. Lord, You see their struggle, their fear, and their pain. Please provide for their needs, guide their steps, and heal their body and mind. Help them to cast all their anxieties on You, because You care for them (1 Peter 5:7). Give them the strength to hold on, and reveal Your will to them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to keep seeking God. He hears your prayers, and He will answer in His perfect timing. Keep trusting, keep hoping, and keep praying. You're not alone, and this is not the end of your story.