I'm getting worse and worse.

[Enthusiastic_Kai]

Hi, 

I haven't been in this account for about 390 days. I just had an email sent to me about here, and for the first time. I feel relieved to have made this account in 2015. Currently, I've suffered a lot for the past two years. In 2016, I began to develop some emotional and psychological issues. At 2017, I began to get mental issues as well this year. After finally getting to a hospital, it turns out that I am currently diagnosed with a minor depression and suicidal ideation and it's been hard. 

To explain, I've been trying to hold onto God's faith. It's getting harder and harder. I'm losing more friends in my life and my family, after all the times they've supported me begin to turn against me. They begin to think I am acting, they even think they can choose how I think, feel how I feel and even how I should live my life. I am getting lost in my life now.

I am currently getting help, but it's not doing anything. A large feeling of guilt and overwhelming fear keeps growing when I get help. I've even attempted suicide at least 3 times yet failed. 

I don't understand what is happening to me and I am losing sight in my Lord, Jesus Christ. I feel like he isn't talking to me anymore. I don't feel his presence when I pray to him like I used to, and my vision gets blurry and it's hard to concentrate on my studies. I feel tearful and guilty and it's making me crazy. I just don't feel like living.

I understand this is a mental health issue, but what I'm worried is that I am losing my faith in my religion. That I am losing my connection with God due to this sickness. That I am losing my hope as well. Ever since my grandfather died and that most of my friends and my parents left and turned against me, I haven't been doing great. It is driving me to attempt suicide again, this time with research on how.

I know this will get wiped in a sea of other prayers, I bet my problem is a pea size compared to everyone else's. But please. If you are reading and you do care, please try to pray for me. It's okay if you don't, I don't want to burden you but if you manage to have that time. I am deeply thankful.

I apologize for getting in your way, I just wanted to let something that I truly felt out. I apologize for getting any of you readers into my problems and concerns. 

 

[Ready2receive my blessings]

You do not need to apologise. I will pray for you as will others on this site. That is what we are all here for.

May God bless and keep you In Jesus Name 

Amen x

 

[JesusIsMyOnlyHope]

Heavenly Father. In the Name of Your Son Jesus Christ, I pray, that you will receive and answer your child's prayers according to your perfect will. Amen

 

[Shermarie]

May our loving God hear and answer your prayer request. In Jesus precious name, Amen!!  :heart:

Ephesians 3:20 (KJV) Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us

 

[kelvinfern7]

That is what this site is for asking for prayer, asking for Jesus.

Lord Jesus I pray that you get this person out of any strongholds. I pray that you help that Lord, bless them strengthen their relationships. I pray that You keep them in your presence and help them emotionally and mentally. if their is any demons their cast hem out Lord I pray that you cover them in your blood Jesus. I pray this in your name Amen. I thank you and praise you Lord.

 

[HMC1957]

"Father, I pray for those people who are hurting & are going through

some unimaginable circumstances.

Please seal and cover this person (and their family) with the blood of Jesus and surround them with Your glory, light, presence, peace and protection, so nothing can get through to harm them.

I pray for those who want their lives to be better & to be free from those things that may be holding them back. Even though we may not know them Father, YOU know their situation."

In Jesus name. Amen

 

[Yummer73]

Prayers, God has never left your side although it feels that way. God is with you as is the community on this site.  

 

[Isabelle10]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.







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[MissJ]

I am praying for you.God loves you and he's still listening to your prayers.Even if you don't feel a connection anymore, he's still close to you.Be blessed.You're never alone.

 

[K.m Binil kumar]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.