Treble
Humble Prayer Partner
Friends, I value your prayers so much. I am feeling at my lowest ever point and seriously worried about my state of mind. The situation with R continues to be silent and I don't know how much more I can take. Why isn't God giving me at least some little chink of light after more than 4 months. I can't hear His voice, see His hand.....nothing. I'm feeling in the midst of depression and anxiety whilst under great pressure trying to care for my parents in declining health and my Dad is becoming very demanding of my time. I feel hardly able to leave the house and yet I have work to do, choirs to have concerts with etc. I would really rather not be on this earth as I see no light, no hope. It is hard to believe that 'God is good' right now. It is very hard to have faith. This circumstance with my friend Ronnie has been ongoing for over 4 months and I know that if it was resolved, a joy would be restored in my heart and life and I could cope with everything so much better. He has been my closest friend for many, many years and without him a light has gone out in my life. I'm trying hard to hold onto Jesus, but not seeing much benefit in my consistent praying, fasting and studying God's word. Thank you for being here for me. In Jesus' Name. Amen.