Ilcothtanys
Disciple of Prayer
Im distrubed Something inside attacking me and dominating me Making me not to be nrml like i was before Controlling my thinking power of sound mind like before Not making me to take clear decisions in life like before I'm stucked something without my permission and thoughts freezing my body and making me discomfort and unable to be normal like others and im feeling feared and attacked always and that fear which is not normal fears that we face in this world ,this is abnormal fear there is no reason but dominating my Power to overcome It making me paralised and making me sit in one place and unable to move and unable to take decisions and making unable to work If i get up from sleep i was completely into dark feeling alone completely even people around me ,even when iam in home It made me not to read the Bible at very first I can see difference that I'm not normal like before Bcz Before i can manage myself, i can overcome my fears i can do my things very actively I wake up early and study My daily schedule is always free and normal everything is in my control But Suddenly one day at the night Somthing freezed me and got physical hurt like someone holded me tightly Unable to overcome with my own power and it I'm alive but iam into darkness i can't feel any earthly things like before While im talking with my friends but I'm not free inside.... something fear,anger, depression everything hitting me bad,but there is no clue for me for what reason I'm suffering? bcz I'm doing everything good in life but unable to overcome from it I went to gym and tried many tips to overcome But i couldn't Wherever I go with whomever i stay Something inside me not giving me the feel like normal I'm losing my grip, getting anger and scolding people and making my life messy no job,no study where iam going what iam doing i have no clue nothing is in my control Im not like this before I'm very active and enjoy everything's I have lot of friends I work hard i study well I'm in my control of everything .... everything is iny grip