Greyred
Disciple of Prayer
I don’t know if the people who replied to my old post will see this, hoping they do because it was my old account and I would like to hear what they have to say since they know my situation but, I was talking to a girl in my class for about 5 weeks, then Christmas break started and we texted for another 2 weeks. All signs showed she liked me, everyone I told about it told me she liked me. I prayed that I could have the courage to talk to her more and someday ask her out. Well, our relationship got more comfortable and I had been abstaining from sexual sin for a total of 26 days. I was abstaining to show myself and god that I was ready for this relationship. But, the day I asked her out she rejected me. And not in a mean or bad way, it was very understanding. But, everyone I told this to was in shock, it seemed so obvious she liked me. But now I’m at a low because the shock and stress of it caused me to relapse at 4 AM. Everything I thought I knew about what we were was false. I’m so confused right now. I’m thinking I accidentally was following my will instead of gods, and that was my downfall. Me and this girl agreed to stay mutual friends. I just need guidance, deep down I still want there but I don’t think it’s good for me. I feel like I failed myself and people around me. I can’t even cry about it because I’m not sure how to even feel about it. Please pray for me