TheGiant
Beloved Servant
I'm afraid, see, I had everything I ever wanted in a companion, and she left me for someone who had previously been a coworker that she was pining after for three years, but, three weeks before that she talked about the possibility of us having a kid after we got married, longer before that, she said she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me. Something tells me I shouldn't close that door all the way, after she walked away, I prayed and felt an overwhelming feeling I should not give up. I still feel this, and I feel something great is coming, whatever it may be. There has to be a reason we both couldn't shut the door completely. I know I ask repeatedly for prayers for this, because I am trying my hardest to leave it in God's hands and be patient for whatever is coming, but I still am struggling to control my sadness and my fear. I am a very impatient person, and spent almost 10 months being patient with her, patient for some things to end so it could get better, and instead she walked away and into the arms of someone else. God help me, I lost my first love.