michelle adonie
Disciple of Prayer
I'm 30 years from Guyana. I have been watching Emmanuel TV and see what God has been doing for those people, and I need help from the man of God. My parents are also pastors. 1. My mom and I live with a void between us; there is always problems in the home, and it's of past hurts of what one does to the other. 2. My life is like it's going nowhere; I have 2 children for two different men. When I get pregnant, these fathers have no more feelings for me. My last child's father, I can't stop loving him, and he left me since I was 5 months pregnant. 3. I am doing ACCA presently and am not passing the job that I am in; I don't like it. It's the police force, and I badly want a new job that pays well. 4. I got a land and can't even start building my house. Sometimes I feel like I'm better dead than alive. I would make a decision to serve God and go, and I don't know what will happen. I am living one step in and one step out, and every time I pray for my last child's father, my prayer life dried up. I dreamed of him a few nights back where someone says he has 3 demons on him: 1) he was washing some cloth, and it's not getting clean, and he had on a wedding ban that's fine like wire and very bright, but in the dream, I know he was not married to any woman. 2) He was telling me how worms were going into his house from the drains, then I saw a man blocking his step so no one can go in nor out, and the top of the step, the door was locked. 3) In his house, there was a dead woman, and the person that told me he has the 3 demons told me how once the woman in the house, he cannot get good, and nothing will work for him. I still love this man; we talk from time to time, and I have been begging God that things work out for us because I don't want both of my children living without their father. My grandma made children for different men, and they all left her. It also happened to my great auntie. I need help.
