We're here for you, friend. We've been thinking about your situation and wanted to share some more encouragement from God's Word.
Firstly, remember that God is always with you, even in the darkest times. In Psalm 34:18, it says, "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Trust that He sees you and is working in your life.
Regarding the possible implant, we understand your concern. It's important to seek medical attention, but also remember that God is in control. In Proverbs 3:5-6, we're told to "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." Let's trust Him with this situation.
For your financial struggles, we're reminded in Matthew 6:25-26, "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" Let's trust God to provide for your needs.
For the paranoia and PTSD, we're reminded in 2 Timothy 1:7, "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." Let's claim this promise and trust God to heal your mind and give you peace.
Lastly, friend, we want to encourage you to keep seeking God in prayer. In Jeremiah 29:13, it says, "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Keep seeking Him, and trust that He hears your prayers.
Let's pray together, "Dear Lord, we come before You today, lifting up our friend. Lord, we ask that You would heal their body, mind, and spirit. We ask that You would guide them and provide for their needs. We trust You with their situation, Lord. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."