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**Prayer Update!** 
Let's lift up **
Kittybuggy
Disciple of Prayer
If you remember me, I've been praying for a while.. and I still am.. I want to try Desire reality shifting to where I could have everything I lost on Amino and Discord back again but I can't do it because of my doubts and negative feelings. So please.. help me.
Edit: Since I can't post the proper links to the stories, I'll rewrite it.
Let me explain again:
There's these three Roleplay Hubs called Crescent Hub(I was a partner manager on there), RP Hub | Server Advertising, and The Simple Roleplay Hub. Crescent Hub is owned by an owner named Death and he's admin to the other two. Then there's these three other servers owned by yourfriendsteven. One is Who Are You Gonna Call? (Ghostbusters themed), Legends & Monsters(forgot the name), and DC Multiverse. (DC themed). At first, everything was great. But then long story short, I introduced myself as a 17 year old but my role said I was 18 which I wasn't aware of it until Death DM me about it. I explained that it was a misclick but instead of being understanding, he banned me from all three hubs (not including yourfriendsteven's servers) refuse to unban me until I have proof I was 17. I got proof and he unbanned me from his Crescent Hub. I got
denied from the others so l decided to send another letter to Death which led him to ban me again saying that I didn't misclick(but I did on accident) and that I appeal on my alt(while it's true I did appeal twice on my alt by accident, I didn't do it on purpose and wasn't in the best mood when I did). The point is I never meant to lie on accident. I didn't do anything wrong and all I did was a misclick an age role and now I'm blacklisted on RP Hub | Server Advertising and hated, banned again and blocked by Death and and the owners of the other RP hubs(Crescent Hub, RP Hub | Server Advertising, and The Simple Roleplay Hub) plus three servers (by yourfriendsteven).
I just can't catch a break without being banned from any servers and everytime I do, its always a misunderstanding and then people will hate me making me feel guilty of it all. I want to get back in the RP Hubs and I want to see a miracle happen but I am losing hope once more and I have no confidence in it. I want to apologize and talk it out with everyone and be forgiven and I want to be happy in there again. I want to time travel back to a few days ago where I was still in the servers where I didn't make an introduction of myself. I want everything back to the way it was a few days ago.
I tried being happy but through my fake smiles, my heart is shattered into a million pieces being accused and hurt. I don't have a real feeling of happiness as of now and I forgot what that feels like. A dark cloud is above me and I can't escape it. The only way to do so is to be back into those Discord RP Hubs and sort this out. I pray for a second chance and I pray for it to happen soon. I pray for good luck and unexpected miracles. I pray for be forgiven by those owners and admins as I meant no real harm except for a simple misunderstanding. I'll keep praying for those who hurt me and pray that a miraculous miracle will shower upon us all and that we all may forgive each other and give each other a second chance to rebuild our relationships with truth and justice.
I said this:
"Death, I hope this message finds you well. I've noticed that my appeals have been denied on Simple Roleplay Hub and DC Multiverse, and I'm still awaiting a response from RP Hub Server Advertising. Additionally, I've been banned/kicked from yourfriendsteven's servers. I understand that concerns about my age may have led to these decisions. However, I'd like to assure you that I'm 17 years old and have been having a productive conversation with you. I'd be grateful if you could kindly inform the owners of these servers about my age and our conversation. I have genuine interest in rejoining the roleplays on these servers, particularly the ones where I've established connections and storylines. I understand the importance of community guidelines and promise to respectfully abide by them. Your support in this matter would mean a lot to me, and I'd greatly appreciate your help in getting back to the roleplays that I enjoy and value."
Death replied with this:
"I did not deal with any of your appeals. Your appeal in Simple RP Hub was denied by another admin after reading through all information presented. Steve, as owner, made his own decision about your case and appeal on his own, as well. For RPH, your appeal was further denied and blacklisted by another owner after reviewing all information once again. For Crescent, I am going to follow suit once more and do likewise. Why? After discussions with other staff from various servers, I realized that I cannot let my misplaced sympathy put others at risk. You lied about your age, plain and simple. There was no misclick. Furthermore, you often told people a range from 17-18 which encompasses two fields of different legalities. Lastly, you alluded towards age-playing in order to get around a block from a user for whatever reason which is extremely suspicious. In terms of notifying other staff about our conversation, they have been informed since the moment we spoke. They are privy to every message sent between us (although not identifying information). They made that decision based on everything said. I am further suspicious of the fact that you appealed bans with your alt account and DMed me from it as well, as if we weren't already having a conversation. In general, I think you should take this as a lesson on how dangerous it is to lie about your age or misrepresent yourself online. I hope you do not pursue someone who has blocked you further either. Perhaps an appeal can be considered further in the future, but not for now."
And if I'm being completely honest. I never lied about my age. I simply misclicked the roles on RP Hub Server Advertising and did an intro about myself in the honest way and further more, I was roleplaying with ppl around my age. I did appeal with my alt account but that was simply an accident as I wasn't really paying attention to it all. But now Death blocked me and banned me again from his server (Crescent Hub) and I'm feeling guilty of it all even though everyone says it's not my fault.
It's just because of that stupid misunderstanding misclicked age role and they don't even want to try and hear it.
I just wish there's a way for them to realize that especially Death and the other Hub and server owners. I wish for all of them to give me another chance to prove myself that I can do better.
*And*
On February 23, 2024, I did something unexpectedly stupid.. I send an apology email to the person who owns RP Hub Server Advertising and instead of accepting it and being a little bit nice, he sounded really upset and rude about it. I really messed up this time more that when I spammed Canadian. I wish there was a way to get Happy to see what I've done and how sorry I am about it. I should have never send that email otherwise I won't be typing all of this.
According to his email, he basically said that if I email or respond back to him then he'll call the police on me because I "tracked" and "stalked" his personal email address which I did not even know how to do.
I simply found it because he shared a google doc to anyone who has the link to the Google doc and I accidentally send a edit request to him and I felt so bad I wanted to apologize. My heart feels heavyweight and I don't know what to do.
I'm so depressed and deeply hurt by everything ever since Rome's ban. Why can't I just go back in time just to simply avoid all of this? Getting a second chance to redo everything from the day before Rome's ban is absolutely perfect. No matter how much I've prayed or watched subliminal videos and trying to stay positive, nothing works for me. I never gotten any good luck anymore even if I was behaving well. But right now I feel stuck and can't go on because everything I do is always gonna end up badly or even worse.
Ugh I can't even type properly because of how shaken up I am. I just really wish there was a way for everyone to get along... Maybe in my dream but definitely not out here in the real world.
I'm not trying to cause any trouble and I tried so hard to make sure it didn't happen but guess I was wrong and now I'm just sad and heartbroken
I want to apologize to everyone who I came across thinking I've caused trouble telling them I'm sorry for everything I've done and I never meant to hurt anyone like this. I'm not perfect and I make a lot of the same mistakes over and over again but those mistakes are never meant to hurt anyone. I never meant to make the on purpose. Sometimes I do things without thinking and ended up with being misunderstanding causing my downfall and pain in my life and heart.
I tried moving on but I can't no matter how hard I tried. I regret everything I've done to cause myself to be ban and blocked on discord. I wish there was a way for them to realize it especially for Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, Mane, Ever Rat, Thea, Miss Divvi, and Rome to talk to me about everything. Either that or I want to go back in time to August 8th/9th 2023 to start completely over again.
I chose Death and Happy as the first two because they were the ones who ban me and kicked me. I'm so lost and scared that I don't know how to deal with this ir even moving on. I pray for these people to have sincerity in their hearts and that knowing communication is the key to understanding misunderstandings. I pray for them to renew their hearts and realize what they've done.
I just want to see something amazing happen and something so miraculous that it'll make me feel better. But every day I wake up, I see nothing out of the ordinary. All I see is pain and misery from what I've done.
If it's to make me a lot more better and to actually feel real happiness then I love for these discord people who ban/blocked me to unban and unblock me to forgive and talk to me but of course only out of luck a miracle can make something like that happen and at the time of writing this, I see no point in believing in a miracle that much anymore because every time I tried and do, nothing happens or make it to actually travel back in time to August 8th 2023 and start over completely from there. I'll do anything to get them to forgive me or to go back in time
.
Nobody and I mean nobody not even a therapy can help me.
Even checking online make me sad. It's all because of the misunderstands that took place on the discord servers. Nobody ever thought of letting me tell my side of the story or cared about my feelings on what happened. They just all believe one guy just because of his story. What about mine? Doesn't everyone have a side of the story to tell? How do you know that that one person is telling the truth? Hearing both sides of the story can provide more information then just from one person. If they could just hear both sides of the story and put it together then maybe just maybe they won't ban or block or blacklist me.
If I haven't been so miserable or hurt on what happened on discord then I could have been more active to keep the Ladybug role on Amino. I feel terrible about losing the role not only because I enjoy playing her but because it was incredibly hard to find one that is free. Ladybug is a popular character to roleplay as and I actually got the chance..the ONE chance to play her and it made me so happy like I actually meant something to the crowd. I feel like I was finally in the spotlight and getting the attention I deserved but the second I became inactive because of the trouble and pain, I lost her like how she lost the miraculouses to Shadowmoth. I feel exactly like how she felt.
Playing as Ladybug meant the world to me and my best role to play as because of how much I know and have been playing as her in the one on one roleplays. I want to play her in a large community because I want to show off how much I know and that I can do it playing an important role. I wanted to show that playing as Ladybug meant that I can be responsible and mature because I have one of the most important main character. Being Ladybug also helped me boost my confidence and pushed me out of my comfort zone.
It can help me be way more creative and already knowing exactly how I want her to react. Then there's playing an OC character. Sure it's fun to make up the name and stuff but you also have to pay attention remembering everything about your OC. It's a lot more work to keep track of and yes I'm aware of the other CC but I don't know them as well as I know of Ladybug or Cat Noir. That's why I was being stubborn about losing Ladybug. She really means a lot and is the one that brings me happiness whenever I play her. It took me so long to finally actually play a canon character in a large community and I actually got it and it really made me feel happy.
And then there is this person called Romantic Roleplayer (DM to roleplay) on Amino and basically I pm them to roleplay because they wanted me to. I remember their rules and everything and I swear on my life I never broke then. Everything was all fun and games until a few days ago when I told them I was going to change my for a another rp. A few minutes later, they just blocked and left the chat. I don't know if I offended then or anything but I swear I didn't do anything to break their rules.
On my Kitty account, I got the same thing. I was waiting patiently for them to reply back but they just blocked me for absolutely no reason. Heck, they blocked my followers too. I don't understand why people do that..
I made a third account for backup just incase but they blocked me before I even said hi or anything to them. But isn't communication the key to everything? I just want to know what I did wrong. All I ever did was do a chance to my pfp and they just left afterwards..
Edit: Since I can't post the proper links to the stories, I'll rewrite it.
Let me explain again:
There's these three Roleplay Hubs called Crescent Hub(I was a partner manager on there), RP Hub | Server Advertising, and The Simple Roleplay Hub. Crescent Hub is owned by an owner named Death and he's admin to the other two. Then there's these three other servers owned by yourfriendsteven. One is Who Are You Gonna Call? (Ghostbusters themed), Legends & Monsters(forgot the name), and DC Multiverse. (DC themed). At first, everything was great. But then long story short, I introduced myself as a 17 year old but my role said I was 18 which I wasn't aware of it until Death DM me about it. I explained that it was a misclick but instead of being understanding, he banned me from all three hubs (not including yourfriendsteven's servers) refuse to unban me until I have proof I was 17. I got proof and he unbanned me from his Crescent Hub. I got
denied from the others so l decided to send another letter to Death which led him to ban me again saying that I didn't misclick(but I did on accident) and that I appeal on my alt(while it's true I did appeal twice on my alt by accident, I didn't do it on purpose and wasn't in the best mood when I did). The point is I never meant to lie on accident. I didn't do anything wrong and all I did was a misclick an age role and now I'm blacklisted on RP Hub | Server Advertising and hated, banned again and blocked by Death and and the owners of the other RP hubs(Crescent Hub, RP Hub | Server Advertising, and The Simple Roleplay Hub) plus three servers (by yourfriendsteven).
I just can't catch a break without being banned from any servers and everytime I do, its always a misunderstanding and then people will hate me making me feel guilty of it all. I want to get back in the RP Hubs and I want to see a miracle happen but I am losing hope once more and I have no confidence in it. I want to apologize and talk it out with everyone and be forgiven and I want to be happy in there again. I want to time travel back to a few days ago where I was still in the servers where I didn't make an introduction of myself. I want everything back to the way it was a few days ago.
I tried being happy but through my fake smiles, my heart is shattered into a million pieces being accused and hurt. I don't have a real feeling of happiness as of now and I forgot what that feels like. A dark cloud is above me and I can't escape it. The only way to do so is to be back into those Discord RP Hubs and sort this out. I pray for a second chance and I pray for it to happen soon. I pray for good luck and unexpected miracles. I pray for be forgiven by those owners and admins as I meant no real harm except for a simple misunderstanding. I'll keep praying for those who hurt me and pray that a miraculous miracle will shower upon us all and that we all may forgive each other and give each other a second chance to rebuild our relationships with truth and justice.
I said this:
"Death, I hope this message finds you well. I've noticed that my appeals have been denied on Simple Roleplay Hub and DC Multiverse, and I'm still awaiting a response from RP Hub Server Advertising. Additionally, I've been banned/kicked from yourfriendsteven's servers. I understand that concerns about my age may have led to these decisions. However, I'd like to assure you that I'm 17 years old and have been having a productive conversation with you. I'd be grateful if you could kindly inform the owners of these servers about my age and our conversation. I have genuine interest in rejoining the roleplays on these servers, particularly the ones where I've established connections and storylines. I understand the importance of community guidelines and promise to respectfully abide by them. Your support in this matter would mean a lot to me, and I'd greatly appreciate your help in getting back to the roleplays that I enjoy and value."
Death replied with this:
"I did not deal with any of your appeals. Your appeal in Simple RP Hub was denied by another admin after reading through all information presented. Steve, as owner, made his own decision about your case and appeal on his own, as well. For RPH, your appeal was further denied and blacklisted by another owner after reviewing all information once again. For Crescent, I am going to follow suit once more and do likewise. Why? After discussions with other staff from various servers, I realized that I cannot let my misplaced sympathy put others at risk. You lied about your age, plain and simple. There was no misclick. Furthermore, you often told people a range from 17-18 which encompasses two fields of different legalities. Lastly, you alluded towards age-playing in order to get around a block from a user for whatever reason which is extremely suspicious. In terms of notifying other staff about our conversation, they have been informed since the moment we spoke. They are privy to every message sent between us (although not identifying information). They made that decision based on everything said. I am further suspicious of the fact that you appealed bans with your alt account and DMed me from it as well, as if we weren't already having a conversation. In general, I think you should take this as a lesson on how dangerous it is to lie about your age or misrepresent yourself online. I hope you do not pursue someone who has blocked you further either. Perhaps an appeal can be considered further in the future, but not for now."
And if I'm being completely honest. I never lied about my age. I simply misclicked the roles on RP Hub Server Advertising and did an intro about myself in the honest way and further more, I was roleplaying with ppl around my age. I did appeal with my alt account but that was simply an accident as I wasn't really paying attention to it all. But now Death blocked me and banned me again from his server (Crescent Hub) and I'm feeling guilty of it all even though everyone says it's not my fault.
It's just because of that stupid misunderstanding misclicked age role and they don't even want to try and hear it.
I just wish there's a way for them to realize that especially Death and the other Hub and server owners. I wish for all of them to give me another chance to prove myself that I can do better.
*And*
On February 23, 2024, I did something unexpectedly stupid.. I send an apology email to the person who owns RP Hub Server Advertising and instead of accepting it and being a little bit nice, he sounded really upset and rude about it. I really messed up this time more that when I spammed Canadian. I wish there was a way to get Happy to see what I've done and how sorry I am about it. I should have never send that email otherwise I won't be typing all of this.
According to his email, he basically said that if I email or respond back to him then he'll call the police on me because I "tracked" and "stalked" his personal email address which I did not even know how to do.
I simply found it because he shared a google doc to anyone who has the link to the Google doc and I accidentally send a edit request to him and I felt so bad I wanted to apologize. My heart feels heavyweight and I don't know what to do.
I'm so depressed and deeply hurt by everything ever since Rome's ban. Why can't I just go back in time just to simply avoid all of this? Getting a second chance to redo everything from the day before Rome's ban is absolutely perfect. No matter how much I've prayed or watched subliminal videos and trying to stay positive, nothing works for me. I never gotten any good luck anymore even if I was behaving well. But right now I feel stuck and can't go on because everything I do is always gonna end up badly or even worse.
Ugh I can't even type properly because of how shaken up I am. I just really wish there was a way for everyone to get along... Maybe in my dream but definitely not out here in the real world.
I'm not trying to cause any trouble and I tried so hard to make sure it didn't happen but guess I was wrong and now I'm just sad and heartbroken
I want to apologize to everyone who I came across thinking I've caused trouble telling them I'm sorry for everything I've done and I never meant to hurt anyone like this. I'm not perfect and I make a lot of the same mistakes over and over again but those mistakes are never meant to hurt anyone. I never meant to make the on purpose. Sometimes I do things without thinking and ended up with being misunderstanding causing my downfall and pain in my life and heart.
I tried moving on but I can't no matter how hard I tried. I regret everything I've done to cause myself to be ban and blocked on discord. I wish there was a way for them to realize it especially for Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, Mane, Ever Rat, Thea, Miss Divvi, and Rome to talk to me about everything. Either that or I want to go back in time to August 8th/9th 2023 to start completely over again.
I chose Death and Happy as the first two because they were the ones who ban me and kicked me. I'm so lost and scared that I don't know how to deal with this ir even moving on. I pray for these people to have sincerity in their hearts and that knowing communication is the key to understanding misunderstandings. I pray for them to renew their hearts and realize what they've done.
I just want to see something amazing happen and something so miraculous that it'll make me feel better. But every day I wake up, I see nothing out of the ordinary. All I see is pain and misery from what I've done.
If it's to make me a lot more better and to actually feel real happiness then I love for these discord people who ban/blocked me to unban and unblock me to forgive and talk to me but of course only out of luck a miracle can make something like that happen and at the time of writing this, I see no point in believing in a miracle that much anymore because every time I tried and do, nothing happens or make it to actually travel back in time to August 8th 2023 and start over completely from there. I'll do anything to get them to forgive me or to go back in time
.Nobody and I mean nobody not even a therapy can help me.
Even checking online make me sad. It's all because of the misunderstands that took place on the discord servers. Nobody ever thought of letting me tell my side of the story or cared about my feelings on what happened. They just all believe one guy just because of his story. What about mine? Doesn't everyone have a side of the story to tell? How do you know that that one person is telling the truth? Hearing both sides of the story can provide more information then just from one person. If they could just hear both sides of the story and put it together then maybe just maybe they won't ban or block or blacklist me.
If I haven't been so miserable or hurt on what happened on discord then I could have been more active to keep the Ladybug role on Amino. I feel terrible about losing the role not only because I enjoy playing her but because it was incredibly hard to find one that is free. Ladybug is a popular character to roleplay as and I actually got the chance..the ONE chance to play her and it made me so happy like I actually meant something to the crowd. I feel like I was finally in the spotlight and getting the attention I deserved but the second I became inactive because of the trouble and pain, I lost her like how she lost the miraculouses to Shadowmoth. I feel exactly like how she felt.
Playing as Ladybug meant the world to me and my best role to play as because of how much I know and have been playing as her in the one on one roleplays. I want to play her in a large community because I want to show off how much I know and that I can do it playing an important role. I wanted to show that playing as Ladybug meant that I can be responsible and mature because I have one of the most important main character. Being Ladybug also helped me boost my confidence and pushed me out of my comfort zone.
It can help me be way more creative and already knowing exactly how I want her to react. Then there's playing an OC character. Sure it's fun to make up the name and stuff but you also have to pay attention remembering everything about your OC. It's a lot more work to keep track of and yes I'm aware of the other CC but I don't know them as well as I know of Ladybug or Cat Noir. That's why I was being stubborn about losing Ladybug. She really means a lot and is the one that brings me happiness whenever I play her. It took me so long to finally actually play a canon character in a large community and I actually got it and it really made me feel happy.
And then there is this person called Romantic Roleplayer (DM to roleplay) on Amino and basically I pm them to roleplay because they wanted me to. I remember their rules and everything and I swear on my life I never broke then. Everything was all fun and games until a few days ago when I told them I was going to change my for a another rp. A few minutes later, they just blocked and left the chat. I don't know if I offended then or anything but I swear I didn't do anything to break their rules.
On my Kitty account, I got the same thing. I was waiting patiently for them to reply back but they just blocked me for absolutely no reason. Heck, they blocked my followers too. I don't understand why people do that..
I made a third account for backup just incase but they blocked me before I even said hi or anything to them. But isn't communication the key to everything? I just want to know what I did wrong. All I ever did was do a chance to my pfp and they just left afterwards..
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