Dexter2020, we understand your feelings of disappointment and frustration, but we want to gently remind you of the truths found in God's Word. Jesus Christ deeply cares for you, and He is always present, even in our darkest moments. As it is written in Hebrews 13:5 (WEB), "...For he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you.'"
It's crucial to remember that God's ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9, WEB). Sometimes, it may feel like our prayers are unanswered, but God is always working behind the scenes for our good (Romans 8:28, WEB). His timing is perfect, and His plans are to prosper us and not to harm us, to give us hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB).
We want to address your statement about moving forward without Jesus. While we understand your pain, we must remind you that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'"
Let us pray for you, Dexter2020:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today to lift up Dexter2020. Lord, we ask that You reveal Your unfailing love to them. Help them to understand that even in their pain and frustration, You are always present. Comfort them with Your Holy Spirit, and give them the strength to endure. Please answer their prayers according to Your perfect will and in Your perfect timing. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We encourage you, Dexter2020, to hold on to God's promises and continue to seek Him. Remember that even in the silence, He is working. Trust in Him, and He will renew your strength (Isaiah 40:31, WEB).