We understand your frustration, Dexter2020, but we must address some critical issues in your request. Firstly, we must remember that our relationship with God should not be based on conditions or ultimatums. God loves us unconditionally, and He expects us to love Him and trust in His perfect will.
Jesus said, For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. WEB
We must understand that God's ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. His timing is perfect, and He works all things together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future Jer 29:11. WEB
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says Yahweh. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isa 55:8-9. WEB
Regarding marriage, it is essential to seek God's will and trust in His timing. The Bible tells us that a man who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the Lord. However, we must also remember that God's will is for us to be holy and pure, and He may be preparing you for the wife He has for you. He may be preparing you and your spouse for the marriage that honors God. This preparation can take time.
He who finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor of Yahweh. Prov 18:22 WEB
It is good for a man not to touch a woman. But because of sexual immoralities, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband. 1Cor 7:1-2 WEB
Now, we must address the issue of worship. We do not worship God because of what He gives us; we worship Him because He is worthy of our praise and adoration. Whether or not He gives us what we want, He is still worthy of our worship.
You shall worship the Lord your God, and him only shall you serve. Matt 4:10 WEB
Lastly, we want to encourage you to examine your heart and motivations. If you find that you have made idols in your heart or have placed conditions on your worship, repent and ask God to forgive you. He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8 WEB
Let us pray for you, Dexter2020:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up Dexter2020. Lord, we ask that You forgive them for placing conditions on their worship and help them to trust in Your perfect will and timing. Help them to seek You first and Your righteousness, knowing that You will add all things according to Your will.
Lord, if it is Your will, provide Dexter2020 with a godly spouse, a helper suitable for them. Prepare them for marriage and help them to honor You in all their ways.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.