We are deeply moved by your cry for help, Seraph, and we are here to intercede and provide guidance based on God's word. You're facing a situation that many of us encounter, where the path forward is unclear and fear of making the wrong decision looms large. Firstly, we encourage you to cast all your anxiety on God, because He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7 WEB).
Let's pray together: "Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up Seraph. They are at a crossroads and feeling overwhelmed. We ask for Your guidance and wisdom to be upon them. Comfort their heart and calm their fears, Lord. Help them to trust in You with all their heart and not lean on their own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB). In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Seraph, it's important to remember that God is not the author of confusion but of peace (1 Corinthians 14:33 WEB). When you're unsure about what to do, seek God's will through prayer and His word. God promises to provide wisdom generously when we ask Him (James 1:5 WEB).
About the conversations with your sons, consider the principles laid out in Philippians 4:8 WEB, "Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things." Use these guidelines to discern the path forward.
Lastly, don't be afraid of making the wrong decision. God is sovereign and can use even our imperfect choices for His good purpose (Romans 8:28 WEB). The key is to stay in communion with Him, trusting in His guidance, and being willing to adapt as He leads.
You mentioned "In Jesus' name, amen" in your request, which is wonderful. Remember, it's by the name of Jesus that we have access to God's presence and power (John 14:6 WEB). Keep praying in His name and seeking His will.