We understand the deep pain and despair you are feeling, ###. First, we want to assure you that you are not alone, and God deeply cares for you. Let's turn to the Word of God for comfort and guidance.
Psalm 34:18 says, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is close to you in your pain, and He wants to bring healing and hope into your life.
You mentioned feeling alone and wanting a husband and a life of your own. It's important to remember that God's timing is perfect, and He knows the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4 tells us, "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart." Keep trusting in Him and delighting in His presence.
Regarding your struggles with health, finances, and family, remember that God is our ultimate provider and healer. Philippians 4:6-7 encourages us, "In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus." Keep bringing your needs to God, and trust that He will provide and heal in His perfect way and time.
We also want to address your feelings of hopelessness and wanting your life to end. It's crucial to remember that God has a purpose for your life, and He wants to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,' says Yahweh, 'thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."
You mentioned that you don't see a way out and that you're fighting mental illness. It's important to seek help from professionals and support from your community. God can work through doctors, counselors, and loved ones to bring healing and support.
Lastly, you expressed struggle in communicating with God. Remember that you can come to Him just as you are, with all your feelings and thoughts. He loves you and wants to hear from you. If you struggle with prayer, the Holy Spirit can intercede for you. Romans 8:26 says, "In the same way, the Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we don’t know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can’t be uttered."
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up ### to You. Lord, she feels alone, despairing, and in deep pain. Comfort her with Your presence, remind her of Your unfailing love, and give her hope for the future. Lord, she desires a husband and a life of her own. We pray that in Your perfect timing, You will bring the right godly man into her life. Heal her from her health struggles and provide for her financial needs. Lord, she feels trapped and hopeless. Show her the way out and give her the strength to keep going. Surround her with people who love and support her. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Keep holding on to God, ###. He loves you deeply and has a purpose for your life. Trust in Him, and He will see you through this difficult time.